"Oh! don't do that," she said; "it is you I want to hear of."
Madame di Forno-Populo had an object in every word she was saying, and
knew exactly how much she meant to tell and how much to conceal. It was
indeed a purely artificial appeal that she was making to her companion's
feelings; and yet, when she looked upon the simple sympathy and generous
interest in Lucy's face, her heart was touched.
"How good you are," she said; "how generous! though I have come to you
against your will, and am staying--when I am not wanted."
"Oh! do not say so," cried Lucy with eagerness; "do not think
so--indeed, it was not against my will. I was glad, as glad as I could
be, to receive my husband's friend."
"Few women are so," said the Contessa gravely. "I knew it when I came.
Few, very few, care for their husband's friend--especially when she is a
woman----"
Lucy fixed her eyes upon her with earnest attention. Her look was not
suspicious, yet there was investigation in it.
"I do not think I am like that," she said simply.
"No, you are not like that," said the Contessa. "You are the soul of
candour and sweetness; but I have vexed you. Ah, my Lucy, I have vexed
you. I know it--innocently, my love--but still I have done it. That is
one of the curses of poverty. Now look," she said, after a momentary
pause, "how truth brings truth! I did not intend to say this when I
began" (and this was perfectly true), "but now I must open my heart to
you. I came without caring much what you would think, meaning no
harm--Oh, trust me, meaning no harm! but since I have come all the
advantages of being here have appeared to me so strongly that I have set
my heart upon remaining, though I knew it was disagreeable to you."
"Indeed:" cried Lucy, divided between sincerity and kindness: "if it was
ever so for a moment, it was only because I did not understand."
"My sweetest child! this I tell you is one of the curses of poverty. I
knew it was disagreeable to you; but because of the great advantage of
being in your house, not only for me, but for Bice, for whom I have
sworn to do my best--Lucy, pardon me--I could not make up my mind to go
away. Listen! I said to myself, I am poor, I cannot give her all the
advantages; and they are rich; it is nothing to them--I will stay, I
will continue, though they do not want me, not for my sake, for the sake
of Bice. They will not be sorry afterwards to have made the fortune of
Bice. Listen, dear one; hear me out. I had the intention of forcing
myself upon you--oh no! the words are not too strong--in London, always
for Bice's sake, for she has no one but me; and if her career is
stopped---- I am not a woman," said the Contessa, with dignity, "who am
used to find myself _de trop_. I have been in my life courted, I may say
it, rather than disagreeable; yet this I was willing to bear--and impose
myself upon you for Bice's sake----"
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