California -- Fiction; Domestic fiction; Sisters -- Fiction
He had not been in this room since the day of her death. It struck him
as strangely changed, strangely and heartrendingly familiar. The
windows were closed, as Alix had never had them closed, winter or
summer, rain or sunshine. Her books stood in their old order, her
student's Shakespere, and some of her girlhood's books, "Little Women,"
and "Uncle Max." In the closet, which exhaled a damp and woody smell,
were one or two of the boyish-looking hats he had so often seen her
crush carelessly over her dark hair, and the big belted coat that was
as plain as his own, and the big boots she wore when she tramped about
the poultry yard, still spattered with pale, dry mud. Her father's worn
little Bible lay on the table, and beside it another book "Duck Raising
for the Market," with the marks of muddy and mealy hands still
lingering on its cover.
Suddenly, evoked by these silent witnesses to her busy and happy life,
the whole woman seemed to stand beside Peter, the tall, eager, vital
woman who had been at home here, who had ruled the cabin with a
splendid and vital personality. He seemed to feel her near him again,
to see the interested eyes, the high cheek-bones touched with scarlet,
the wisp of hair that would fall across her face sometimes when she was
deep in baking, or preserving, or poultry-farming, and that she would
brush away with the back of an impatient hand, only to have it slip
loose again.
One of her kitchen aprons, caught in the current of air from the opened
door, blew about on its hook. He remembered her, on many a wintry day,
buttoned into just such a crisp apron, radiantly busy and brisk in her
kitchen, stirring and chopping, moving constantly between stove and
table. With strong hands still showing traces of flour she would come
to sit beside him at the piano, to play a duet with her characteristic
dash and finish, only to jump up in sudden compunction, with an
exclamation: "Oh, my ducks--I'd forgotten them! Oh, the poor little
wretches!"
And she would be gone, leaving a streak of wet, fresh air through the
warm house from the open door, and he would perhaps glance from a
window to see her, roughly coated and booted, ploughing about her duck
yard, delving into barrels of grain, turning on faucets, wielding a
stubby old broom.
She loved her life, he mused, with a bitter heartache, as he stood here
in her empty room. Sometimes he had marvelled at the complete and
unquestioning joy she had brought to it. Books, puzzles, music, and
fires sufficed her in the few hours that she ever spent in her own
drawing room. For the rest she had the kitchen and the farmyard, and
the world out of doors, the oaks and the grass, the great stretches of
dim forest, the muddy trails, the blowing airs on the crest of the
ridge that made her shout and stagger in their wild onslaught. Peter
reminded himself that never in their years together had he heard her
complain about anything, or seem to feel bored or at a loss.
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