He at once began to seek the connection between his smoking and the
taxi. Behind all her actions lay a motive, which she disguised with an
appearance of irresponsibility. Being in her company was like studying
the moves in a game of chess. Had she persuaded him to smoke in
self-protection, so that he might be occupied when they were alone
together?
“The taxi! It’s early. We don’t need to go yet. Or d’you mean that you
want to take a longer drive?”
“I’ve----” She winked at him. “This isn’t the great big confession----
I’ve to get back for the theatre. Don’t look crestfallen; you’re
coming--just the two of us. If we don’t start now, I shan’t have time to
dress.”
As he followed her out into the courtyard, he made a mental note: her
insistance that he should smoke had been a precautionary measure for a
home-defense. Already her manner towards him was growing circumspect.
When she had given the driver instructions, she took her seat remotely
in the corner. There was one last flicker of her Nell Gwynn mood when
she leant out to gaze at the sea lying red behind the gray salt-marshes.
“Good-by, dear little day; you’ve been a sort of honeymoon.” She spied
out of the comers of her eyes at Teddy with an impish raising of her
brows. It was as though she were asking him whether the day need end.
“Why go back? Why ever go back? Why not get married?” The hand which he
tried to seize happened to be Miss Independence. It gave him a friendly
pat in rebuke as it escaped him.
“We’re getting stupid again.” Closing her eyes, she curled herself up
against the cushions. Her voice was small and tired.
In an instant he was miles away from her, buried beneath his mountain
of ice. She was La Belle Dame Sans Merd, chilling his affection with
silence. He was amused. He was beginning to understand her tactics. She
was easy of approach, but difficult of capture. He looked back; from
a child she had been like that. But he wished that she wouldn’t show
distrust of him whenever they were alone. It made love seem less
gallant, almost ugly--a thing to be dreaded. Was it what had happened to
her mother that made her----? “She’s afraid to love too much. Her mother
got hurt.” Was this the price of which Hal had spoken? Was his share of
the paying to have his ideal lowered by the girl by whom it had been
inspired?
He sat in his corner, smoking and scrupulously preserving the gap that
lay between them. He was doing his best to show her by his actions that
her defensive measures were unnecessary. One hand shaded her eyes, the
other lay half open in her lap. Her head drooped forward slightly and
her knees were crossed. Her attitude was one of prayer.
“Please go on talking,” she murmured. “Don’t mind if I’m a little quiet.”
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