'Smiles': A Rose of the CumberlandsRobinson, Eliot H. (Eliot Harlow)
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'Smiles': A Rose of the Cumberlands
Robinson, Eliot H. (Eliot Harlow)
Cumberland Mountains -- Fiction
Finally, late in May, is an entry, longer than any of its predecessors,
and the last for many a day. Rose made it seated in the soft moonlight
which came through the window of her hospital room, after her roommate
had fallen asleep.
"I am in a strange mood to-night, little diary, and not quite sure
whether I want to laugh or cry--indeed, I think that my heart has
done both to-day. I don't feel like going to sleep, but perhaps I
will be able to if I get the many thoughts out of my mind and down
on paper--now they are like so many little imps beating against my
brain with hammers.
"Surely I _should_ be happy at the thought that to-morrow is to
carry me to my goal at the top of the mountain path which Donald
described. In twelve hours I shall (D. V.) be a graduate nurse;
but, now that the journey is almost an accomplished fact, I
positively shiver when I think of the nerve of that child who was I
five years ago and who, blessed with ignorance, made up her mind to
become one, or 'bust'--that is the way I put it, then. Friends have
sometimes told me that they didn't see how I had the courage to
attempt it; but I tell them, truthfully, that it isn't courage when
one tackles a thing which she--or he--doesn't know is difficult to
do, and that few things are insurmountably difficult which she
tackles with confidence (which is as often the result of ignorance
as of faith in one's own power). So how can I take any credit for
succeeding?
"It _has_ been hard work, of course, and I know that I must have
failed if every one had not been so good to me, and, above all, if
God had not meant me to succeed. I have never forgotten that night
when the 'reverend' opened my eyes to the knowledge that I am His
partner in working out my life. Dear Mr. Talmadge! I am ashamed
that I stopped writing to him, so long ago, yet I know that he is
still my friend, although we do not see each other. That is the
beauty of true friendship--it is a calm and constant star, always
in its place against the time when we want to lift our eyes to seek
its light. I know that it is the same with Donald.
"When I think of him to-night, and realize that he cannot
be near me in my little hour of triumph to-morrow, it is hard for me
to keep back the tears. Dear God, bless him and bring him
happiness--with Miss Treville.
"I cannot help feeling worried about Donald, for, although his
letter makes light of his illness, I have a troublesome
presentiment that he is worse than he will acknowledge. He is the
kind to spend every ounce of his wonderful vitality without thought
of self, and the two and a half years during which he has been
laboring so hard, and so effectively, must have drained even his
great strength. Slight, wiry people are like the willows that bend
easily, but return to normal quickly, after the stress of storm has
ended; but, when big ones--like Donald--break, it is like the fall
of a mighty oak.
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