Bildungsromans; Chicago (Ill.) -- Fiction; Domestic fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction; Gamblers -- Family relationships -- Fiction
“Not only did I not plan to write a Best Seller when I wrote ‘So Big’
but I thought, when I had finished it, that I had written the world’s
worst seller. Not that alone, I thought I had written a complete
Non-Seller. I didn’t think anyone would ever read it. And that’s the
literal truth.
“It was this way. I had worked on it, day after day, day after day, for
many months, starting at nine each morning and working until four in the
afternoon. I knew where I was going and why I wanted to get there, but
after a time I became like a patient plodder who must travel weary miles
along a lonely road before he arrives at the city of his destination.
Mile after mile I covered the distance, sometimes traveling fairly
swiftly, sometimes scarcely able to lift one tired foot after the other.
When it was finished I was so dulled by contact with it that I scarcely
could see it. The last stretch of the work, during June and July, had
been written in Chicago. That June and July in Chicago I recall as a
period during which the thermometer hovered gracefully between 90 and 96
in the shade.
“As the work of final correction began and progressed I began to dole
out sheaves of copy to the typist. She used to call for a chunk of the
story every day or two. She would appear at about four in the afternoon
when I had finished work for the day, and when I was at my limpest,
dampest and lowest. I remember her as a nice fresh-looking red-haired
girl in crisp cool orchid organdie. She would make four copies of each
fresh sheaf as she received it, return these, and call for more. No
other soul except myself had seen a line of that story.
“Each time she called I waited eagerly, hopefully, for her to make some
comment. I wanted her to say she liked Selina. I wanted her to say she
didn’t care for Dirk. I wanted her to say she thought the story should
have ended this way, or that. I wanted her to evince some interest in
the novel; to show some liking for it, or even to show dislike. She
never did.
“‘Well,’ said I to Miss E. Ferber, ‘that settles it. There you are,
Edna! I told you so! Who would be interested in a novel about a
middle-aged woman in a calico dress and with wispy hair and bad teeth,
grubbing on a little truck farm south of Chicago! Nobody. Who cares
about cabbages! Nobody. Who would read the thing if it came out as a
novel! A dull plodding book, written because I was interested; because I
wanted intensely to write it; because I had carried the thought of it
around in my head for five years or more.’
“The story was to be serialized in the _Woman’s Home Companion_ before
being published in novel form. Well, that was all right. It might go
well enough as a serial. But as a novel! Never.
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