"My poor dear, dearest sister, in a fit of insanity has been the
death of her own mother. I was at hand only in time enough to
snatch the knife out of her grasp. She is at present in a
madhouse, from whence I fear she must be moved to a hospital. God
has preserved to me my senses; I eat and drink, and sleep, and
have my judgment, I believe, very sound. My poor father was
slightly wounded, and I am left to take care of him and my aunt.
Mr. Norris, of the Blue Coat School, has been very kind to us, and
we have no other friend; but, thank God, I am very calm and
composed, and able to do the best that remains to do. Write as
religious a letter as possible, but no mention of what is gone and
done with. With me "the former things are passed away," and I have
something more to do than to feel. God Almighty have us all in His
keeping! Mention nothing of poetry. I have destroyed every vestige
of past vanities of that kind.... Your judgment will convince you
not to take any notice of this yet to your dear wife. You look
after your family; I have my reason and strength left to take care
of mine. I charge you do not think of coming to see me. Write. I
will not see you if you come. God Almighty love you and all of us!"
Coleridge's reply was full of comfort to his afflicted friend, and
upon its receipt Charles writes again:--
"Your letter was an inestimable treasure to me. It will be a
comfort to you, I know, to know that our prospects are somewhat
better. My poor dear, dearest sister, the unhappy and unconscious
instrument of the Almighty's judgment on our house is restored to
her senses, to a dreadful sense and recollection of what has
passed, awful to her mind, and impressive (as it must be to the
end of life), but tempered with religious resignation and the
reasonings of a sound judgment, which in this early stage knows
how to distinguish between the deed committed in a transient fit
of frenzy and the terrible guilt of a mother's murder. I have seen
her. I found her this morning calm and serene: far, very far, from
an indecent, forgetful serenity. She has a most affectionate and
tender concern for what has happened. Indeed, from the beginning,
frightful and hopeless as her disorder seemed, I had confidence
enough in her strength of mind and religious principle, to look
forward to a time when even she might recover tranquility. God be
praised, Coleridge, wonderful as it is to tell, I have never been
otherwise than collected and calm; even on the dreadful day and in
the midst of the terrible scene, I preserved a tranquility which
bystanders may have construed into indifference--a tranquility not
of despair. Is it folly or sin in me to say that it was a
religious principle that most supported me? I allow much to other
favourable circumstances. I felt that I had something else to do
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