Sons of fire, Vol. II.Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
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Sons of fire, Vol. II.
Braddon, M. E. (Mary Elizabeth)
English fiction -- 19th century
"Was I, her son, likely to be ignorant of the mother's character, or
unable to gauge the strength of her prejudices--prejudices that seemed
so much a part of her nature as to form a strong argument against
Locke's assertion that there are no innate ideas? Indeed, in reading
that philosopher's famous chapter, it always seemed to me, that if the
average infant had to begin the A B C of life at the first letter,
my mother must be a 'sport' or exception to the general rule, and
must have been born with her brain richly stocked with family pride
and social distinctions. In all the years I had lived with her I had
never seen her unbend to a servant, or converse on equal terms with
a tradesman. She had a full appreciation of the value of wealth when
it was allied with good birth; but the millionaire manufacturer or
the lucky speculator belonged to that outer circle of which she knew
nothing, and of which she would believe no good.
"I was her only son; and she was a widow. I owed her more than most
sons owe their mothers. I did not stand as number four or five in
a family circle, taking my share in the rough and tumble of family
life. My mother had been all in all to me; and I had been all in all
to her. I had been her friend and companion from the time I was able
to understand the English language, the recipient of all her ideas,
her likes and dislikes--from the early stage when the childish mind
unconsciously takes shape and bent from the mind of the parent the
child loves best. From my seventh year I was fatherless, and all that
is sacred and sweet in home life began and ended for me with the word
mother.
"My mother was what Gerald Standish called 'a masterful woman,' a
woman to whom it was natural to direct and initiate the whole business
of life. My father was her opposite in temperament,--irresolute,
lymphatic; and I think he must have handed her the reins of home
government before their honeymoon was over. I remember him just well
enough to remember that he left the direction of his life wholly to
her; that he deferred to her judgment, and studied her feelings in
every detail of his existence; and that he obviously adored her.
I don't think he cared very much for me, his only child. I can
recall no indication of warmth of feeling on his part, only a placid
indifference, as of one whose affection was concentrated upon a single
object, and whose heart had no room for any other image. He spoke of
me as 'the boy,' and looked at me occasionally with an air of mild
wonder, as if I were somebody else's son, whose growth took him by
surprise. I never remember his expressing any opinion about me, except
that I had grown since he looked at me last.
"His feeling about me being thus tepid, it was hardly surprising that
he should make what many people have called an unjust will. I have
never disputed its justice, for I loved my mother too much to complain
of the advantages of power and status which that will gave her.
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