England -- Fiction; Fathers and daughters -- Fiction; Sisters -- Fiction
“As for having asked her to come to the studio, I assure you my
intentions were quite innocent. Perhaps you won't understand what
I mean; you don't care for painting, but very often an artist has a
longing to paint a certain face, and the desire completely masters him.
Well, I had a longing of this kind to paint Lizzie; hers is just the
kind of head that suits me--she offered to give me a sitting, Idid
not see much harm in accepting, and as I could not paint her in the
bar-room, I asked her to the studio. But as for making out there was
anything wrong--I assure you she is not that sort of girl. If we were
married (I mean Maggie and I) I would have to have models; we'll have to
come to an understanding on that point. Now what I want you to do is to
explain to Maggie that there is nothing wrong between me and Lizzie, you
can tell her there is nothing--I swear there is nothing; and then you
had better explain that an artist must have models to work from.”
“Don't ask me. I wish you wouldn't ask me. I make a rule never to
interfere in my sisters' affairs. I did once, you remember, and I
thought I should never hear the end of it.”
“I think you might do this for me.”
“Don't ask me. I wish you wouldn't, my dear fellow. I am an exceedingly
nervous chap, and I have had nothing but bad luck all my life.”
“You think of nothing but yourself. You certainly are the most selfish
fellow I ever met. You take no interest in any affairs but your own.”
Willy made no answer. He sat stroking his moustache softly with slow
crumpled hand. After a long silence, he said: “Tell me, Frank, are you
really in love with my sister, or is it only imagination? I know people
often think they are in love when their fancy is only a little excited.
Very little will pass for being in love, but the real thing is very
different from such fancies.”
“I assure you I never loved any one like Maggie. Yes, I am sure I love
her.”
“You may be in love, I don't say you aren't; but I am sure there's
no more common mistake than to fancy one's self in love because one's
imagination is a bit excited. When you do fall in love, you find out
your mistake.”
“You think no one was ever in love but yourself. Do you remember when
you took me to see her, when we heard her sing 'Love was false as he was
fair, and I loved him far too well'?”
Frank knew no more of the story than that: Willy had loved this actress
vainly. On occasions Willy had alluded to her, but he had never shown
signs of wishing to confide.
“Yes, I remember. How I loved that woman, and what a wreck it has made
of my life. I daresay you often think me dull; I can quite understand
your thinking me narrow-minded, selfish, and incapable of taking
interest in other people's affairs: losing her took the soul out of my
life. Now nothing really amuses me--now nothing really interests me. I
often think if I were to die, it would be a happy release.”
“You never told me anything about it before; wouldn't she marry you?”
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