Squire Arden; volume 2 of 3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Squire Arden; volume 2 of 3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction; Landowners -- Fiction
When the servants had gone to bed she went into the library once more in
her dressing-gown with her candle, and unlocked all its fastenings, and
took out the bundle of papers to look at it. The words she had seen,
which had woke her out of one dream of pain into another, and which had
shaken her being so profoundly, were covered over now by the envelope
into which she had thrust them. She took it out and weighed it in her
hands--the neat harmless little packet, which looked as if it could harm
nobody! What right had she to think it would harm any one? Clare took it
out as if it had been something explosive, and weighed it, and gazed at
it. All the house was silent. There was not one creature in it who was
not sleeping or seeking sleep. Her own light and the dim one which
awaited her in her chamber upstairs were the only signs of life in the
great, silent, locked-up place. It was guarded without from every kind
of assault; but who could ward off the enemies who existed insidious
within?
Clare sat revolving this problem until the night was far gone. She did
not seem able to leave it; and yet her thoughts made no progress. Was
she the guardian of Arden, watching over that secret, unable to give it
up, keeping the house and the family from harm? She thought it was some
demon which kept tempting her to open the packet, and discover all. Most
likely it would be the best thing to do. Most likely what she would
find out on a closer examination would altogether clear up those words
which had thrilled her through and through as with an electric touch.
They were her father’s papers. Was it not her duty to find out what was
in them, to be ready to vindicate her father’s memory should anyone ever
assail it? She sat and weighed the papers in her hand, and listened to
all the mysterious sounds and mutterings of the night, till at last her
mind became incapable of any personal action, and she felt it grow into
a furious battle-field of the two opinions which charged and encountered
and were repulsed, and rallied again, and tore her in sunder. It was
more weariness than anything else which prompted her at last to the step
she took. She was reluctant to think of Edgar at all in the present
state of her mind, and yet it was he who was most deeply concerned.
After she had discussed it with herself for hours she rose up from the
bureau at the bidding of a sudden impulse, and sat down in her father’s
chair. It was a chair which nobody ever occupied, which the servants
were afraid of--and Clare could not but feel with involuntary
superstition that her father himself was somehow superintending this
action of hers. She drew towards her the blotting book he had used, and
which contained his paper--paper which no one had made any use of since
his death. Was it he who was dictating to her, holding her pen, guiding
her in this tardy justice? Her letter was very short, concise, and
restrained. Before she began to write she did not feel as if she could
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