Squire Arden; volume 3 of 3Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Squire Arden; volume 3 of 3
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
England -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; Inheritance and succession -- Fiction; Landowners -- Fiction
She lifted up her face to him, with the tears still wet upon her cheeks.
They loved each other more truly at that moment than they had ever done
before; and Gussy’s heart, as she said, was breaking. She threw her arms
round his neck, and clung to him. “O Edgar, dear! Good-bye, good-bye!”
she sobbed. And his heart, too, thrilled with a poignant sweetness,
ineffable misery, and consolation, and despair.
This was how they parted for ever and ever--not with any pretence
between them that it could ever be otherwise, or anything that sounded
like hope. Lady Augusta’s warning was unnecessary. They said not a word
to each other of anything but that final severance. Perhaps in Gussy’s
secret heart, when she felt herself placed in a chair, felt another
sudden hot kiss on her forehead, and found herself alone, and everything
over, there was a pang more secret and deep-lying still, which felt the
absence of any suggestion for the future; perhaps there had flitted
before her some phantom of romance, whispering what he might do to prove
himself worthy of her--revealing some glimpse of a far-off hope. Gussy
knew all through that this was impossible. She was sure as of her own
existence that no such thing could be; and yet, with his kiss still warm
on her forehead--a kiss which only parting could have justified--she
would have been pleased had he said it, only said it. As it was, she sat
and cried, with a sense that all was finished and over, in which there
lay the very essence of despair.
Edgar returned to the library while Lady Augusta was still in the very
midst of her interrogations. She stopped short at sight of him, making
an abrupt conclusion. She saw his eyes full of tears, the traces of
emotion in his face, and thanked God that it was over. At such a moment,
in such a mood, it would have been so difficult, so impossible to resist
him. If he were to ask her for permission to write to Gussy, to cherish
a hope, she felt that even to herself it would have been hard, very
hard, to say absolutely, No. And her very soul trembled to think of the
effect of such a petition on Gussy’s warm, romantic, young heart. But he
had not made any such prayer; he had accepted the unalterable necessity.
She felt sure of that by the shortness of his absence, and the look
which she dared scarcely contemplate--the expression of almost solemnity
which was upon his face. She got up and went forward to meet him, once
more holding out both her hands.
“Edgar,” she said, “God will reward you for being so good and so true.
You have not thought of yourself, you have thought of others all
through, and you will not be left to suffer alone. Oh, my dear boy! I
can never be your mother now, and yet I feel as if I were your mother.
Kiss me too, and God bless you! I would give half of everything I have
to find out that this was only a delusion, and that all was as it used
to be.”
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