Stand Fast, Craig-Royston! (Volume III)Black, William
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Stand Fast, Craig-Royston! (Volume III)
Black, William
Families -- Fiction; Grandfathers -- Fiction; Older people -- Fiction; Scotland -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
"Well, well, well," said he, in an altered tone, "I did not mean to hurt
you. No, no, Maisrie; you’re a good lass—a good lass—none better in the
whole kingdom of Scotland. I was not thinking—I beg your pardon, my
dear—I beg your pardon."
She rose, and kissed his hand, and left the room. Then old George
Bethune turned to his visitor, and began to talk to him in a curiously
rapid way—rapid and disconnected and confused—while the brilliant eyes
were all the time fixed anxiously on the young man.
"Yes, I am glad you have come—I have been sorely perplexed," he said, in
his husky and hurried fashion; "—perhaps, when one is ill, confidence in
one’s own judgment gives way a little—and it is not—every one whom you
can consult. But that is not the main thing—not the main thing at all—a
question of money is a minor thing—but yesterday—I think it was
yesterday—my voice seemed to be going from me—and I thought—I would
leave you a message. The book there—bring it—"
He looked towards a red volume that was lying on the window-sill.
Vincent went and fetched it; though even as he did so, he thought it
strange that a man who was perhaps lying on his deathbed should bother
about a book of ballads. But when, he might have asked himself, had
George Bethune ever seemed to realise the relative importance of the
things around him? To him a harebell brought from the Braes of
Gleniffer was of more value than a king’s crown.
"Open at the mark," said the sick man, eagerly. "See if you
understand—without much said—to her, I mean. Poor lass—poor lass—I
caught her crying once or twice—while we were away—and I have been
asking myself whether—whether it was all done for the best." Then he
seemed to pull himself together a little. "Yes, yes, it was done for
the best—what appeared best for every one; but now—well, now it may be
judged differently—I am not what I was—I hope I—have done no wrong."
Vincent turned to the marked page; and there he found a verse of one of
the ballads pencilled round, with the last line underscored. This is
what he read:
He turned his face unto the wa’,
And death was with him dealing;
"Adieu, adieu, my dear friends a’—
_Be kind to Barbara Allen!_"
The old man was watching him anxiously and intently.
"Yes, I understand," Vincent said. "And I think you may depend on me."
"Then there is another thing," the old man continued—his mind leaping
from one point to another with marvellous quickness, though he himself
seemed so languid and frail. "I—I wish to have all things left in
order. If the summons—comes—I must be able to meet it—with head up—fear
never possessed me during life. But who has not made mistakes—who has
not made mistakes?—not understood at the time. And yet perhaps it was
not a mistake—I am not the man I was—I have doubts—I thought I was doing
well by all—but now—I am uneasy—questions come to me in the
night-time—and I have not my old strength—I cannot cast them behind me
as in better days."
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