By all the rest Stella Fregelius was soon as much forgotten as though
she had never walked the world or breathed its air. That gale had done
much damage and taken away many lives—all down the coast was heard the
voice of mourning; hers chanced to be one of them, and there was
nothing to be said.
On the morning of the eleventh day came a telegram from Mary addressed
to Morris, and dated from London. It was brief and to the point. “Come
to dinner with me at Seaview, and bring your father.—Mary.”
When Morris drove to Seaview that evening he was as a man is in a
dream. Sorrow had done its work on him, agonising his nerves, till at
length they seemed to be blunted as with a very excess of pain, much as
the nerves of the victims of the Inquisition were sometimes blunted,
till at length they could scarcely feel the pincers bite or the irons
burn. Always abstemious, also, for this last twelve days he had
scarcely swallowed enough food to support him, with the result that his
body weakened and suffered with his mind.
Then there was a third trouble to contend with,—the dull and gnawing
sense of shame which seemed to eat into his heart. In actual fact, he
had been faithful enough to Mary, but in mind he was most unfaithful.
How could he come to her, the woman who was to be his wife, the woman
who had dealt so well by him, with the memory of that spiritual
marriage at the altar of the Dead Church still burning in his
brain—that marriage which now was consecrated and immortalised by
death? What had he to give her that was worth her taking? he, who if
the truth were known, shrank from all idea of union with any earthly
woman; who longed only to be allowed to live out his time in a solitude
as complete as he could find or fashion? It was monstrous; it was
shameful; and then and there he determined that before ever he stood in
Monksland church by the side of Mary Porson, at least he would tell her
the truth, and give her leave to choose. To his other sins against her
deceit should not be added.
“Might I suggest, Morris,” said the Colonel, who as they drove, had
been watching his son’s face furtively by the light of the brougham
lamp—“might I suggest that, under all the circumstances, Mary would
perhaps appreciate an air a little less reminiscent of funerals? You
may recollect that several months have passed since you parted.”
“Yes,” said Morris, “and a great deal has happened in that time.”
“Of course, her father is dead.” The Colonel alluded to no other death.
“Poor Porson! How painfully that beastly window in the dining-room will
remind me of him! Come, here we are; pull yourself together, old
fellow.”
Morris obeyed as best he could, and presently found himself following
the Colonel into the drawing-room, for once in his life, as he
reflected, heartily glad to have the advantage of his parent’s society.
He could scarcely be expected to be very demonstrative and lover-like
under the fire of that observant eyeglass.
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