“No, no,” she answered, “none now—at least, none here. I have—I mean I
had—a sister, my twin, but she died when we were seventeen. This was
the most dreadful thing that ever happened to me, the thing which made
me what I am.”
“I don’t quite understand. What are you, then?”
“Oh, something very unsatisfactory, I am afraid, quite different from
other people. What Mr. Tomley said _you_ were, Mr. Monk, a mystic and a
dreamer of dreams; a lover of the dead; one who dwells in the past,
and—in the future.”
Morris did not pursue the subject; even under their strange
circumstances, favourable as they were to intimacy and confidences, it
seemed impertinent to him to pry into the mysteries of his companion’s
life. Only he asked, at hazard almost:
“How did you spend your time up there in Northumberland?”
“In drawing a little, in collecting eggs, moths, and flowers a great
deal; in practising with my violin playing and singing; and during the
long winters in making translations in my spare time of Norse sagas,
which no one will publish.”
“I should like to read them; I am fond of the sagas,” he said, and
after this, under pressure of their physical misery, the conversation
died away.
Hour succeeded to hour, and the weather moderated so much that now they
were in little danger of being swamped. This, indeed, was fortunate,
since in the event of a squall or other emergency, in their numbed
condition it was doubtful whether they could have found enough strength
to do what might be necessary to save themselves. They drank what
remained of the whiskey, which put life into their veins for a while,
but soon its effects passed off, leaving them, if possible, more frozen
than before.
“What is the time?” asked Stella, after a long silence.
“It should be daybreak in about two hours,” he said, in a voice that
attempted cheerfulness.
Then a squall of sleet burst upon them, and after this new misery a
torpor overcame Stella; at least, her shiverings grew less violent, and
her head sank upon his shoulder. Morris put one arm round her waist to
save her from slipping into the water at the bottom of the boat, making
shift to steer with the other. Thus, for a while they ploughed
forward—whither he knew not, across the inky sea, for there was no
moon, and the stars were hidden, driven on slowly by the biting breath
of the winter wind.
Presently she awoke, lifted her head, and spoke, saying:
“We can’t last much longer in this cold and wet. You are not afraid,
are you?”
“No, not exactly afraid, only sorry; it is hard to go with so much to
be done, and—to leave behind.”
“You shouldn’t think like that,” she answered, “for what we leave must
follow. She will suffer, but soon she will be with you again, where
everything is understood. Only you ought to have died with her, and not
with me, a stranger.”
“Fate settles these things,” he muttered, “and if it comes to that,
maybe God will give her strength. But the dawn is near, and by it we
may see land.”
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