When, still stiff and sore from his adventure in the open boat, Morris
went to bed, it was clear to his mind after careful consideration that
fortune had made him the host of an exceedingly strange couple. Of Mr.
Fregelius he was soon able to form an estimate distinct enough,
although, for aught he knew, it might be erroneous. The clergyman
struck him as a person of some abilities who had been doomed to much
disappointment and suffered from many sorrows. Doubtless his talents
had not proved to be of a nature to advance him in the world. Probably,
indeed—and here Morris’s hazard was correct—he was a scholar and a
bookworm without individuality, to whom fate had assigned minor
positions in a profession, which, however sincere his faith, he was
scarcely fitted to adorn.
The work of a clergyman in a country parish if it is to succeed, should
be essentially practical, and this man was not practical. Clearly,
thought Morris, he was one of those who beat their wings against the
bars with the common result; it was the wings that suffered, the bars
only grew a trifle brighter. Then it seemed that he had lost a wife to
whom he was attached, and the child who remained to him, although he
loved her and clung to her, he did not altogether understand. So it
came about, perhaps, that he had fallen under the curses of loneliness
and continual apprehension; and in this shadow where he was doomed to
walk, flourished forebodings and regrets, drawing their strength from
his starved nature like fungi from a tree outgrown and fallen in the
forest.
Mr. Fregelius, so thought Morris, was timid and reticent, because he
dared not discover his heart, that had been so sorely trampled by Fate
and Fortune. Yet he had a heart which, if he could find a confessor
whom he could trust, he longed to ease in confidence. For the rest, the
man’s physical frame, not too robust at any time, was shattered, and
with it his nerve—sudden shipwreck, painful accident, the fierce
alternatives of hope and fear; then at last a delirium of joy at the
recovery of one whom he thought dead, had done their work with him; and
in this broken state some ancient, secret superstition became dominant,
and, strive as he would to suppress it, even in the presence of a
stranger, had burst from his lips in hints of unsubstantial folly.
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