Morris put down the letter and laughed aloud. Mary was as amusing as
ever, and he longed to see her again, especially as he was convinced
that she was really bored out there at Beaulieu, with Mr. Porson sick,
and his father very much occupied with his own affairs. In a moment he
made up his mind; he would go out and see her. Of course, he could ill
spare the time, but for the present the more pressing of his
experiments were completed, and he could write up his “data” there.
Anyway, he would put in a fortnight at Beaulieu, and, what is more,
start to-morrow if it could be arranged.
He went to the table and began a letter to Mary announcing that she
might expect to see him sometime on the day that it reached her. When
he had got so far as this he remembered that the dressing bell had
already rung some minutes, and ran upstairs to change his clothes. As
he fastened his tie he thought to himself sadly that this would be his
last dinner with Stella Fregelius, and as he brushed his hair he
determined that unless she had other wishes, it should be as happy as
it could be made. He would like this final meal to be the pleasantest
of all their meals, and although, of course, he had no right to form an
opinion on the matter, he thought that perhaps she might like it, too.
They were going to part, to enter on different walks of life—for now,
be it said, he had quite convinced himself that she was engaged—so let
their parting memories of each other be as agreeable as possible.
Meanwhile, Stella also had her reflections. Her conversation with her
father had troubled her, more, perhaps, than her remarks might have
suggested. There was little between this pair except the bond of blood,
which sometimes seems to be so curiously accidental, so absolutely
devoid of influence in promoting mutual sympathies, or in opening the
door to any deep and real affection. Still, notwithstanding this lack
of true intimacy, Stella loved her father as she felt that he loved
her, and it gave her pain to be forced to cross his wishes. She knew
with what a fierce desire, although he was ashamed to express all its
intensity, he desired that she should accept this, the first chance of
wealthy and successful marriage that had come her way, and the anguish
which her absolute refusal must have entailed upon his heart.
Of course, it was very worldly of him, and therefore reprehensible; yet
to a great extent she could sympathise with his disappointment. At
bottom he was a proud man, although he repressed his pride and kept it
secret. He was an ambitious man, also, and his lot had been confined to
humble tasks, absolutely unrecognised beyond his parish, of a
remotely-placed country parson. Moreover, his family had been rich; he
had been brought up to believe that he himself would be rich, and then,
owing to certain circumstances, was doomed to pass his days in
comparative poverty.
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