England -- Fiction; Invalids -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
Then there came a day, not long afterward, when she made the speech
which in some form or other he had been expecting and dreading.
“The next glorious adventure will be when you take me over the palace.”
He laughed awkwardly. “I remember telling you that the palace has run to
seed.”
“But you still live in it.”
“No, dear,” said he.
“Oh!” said Stellamaris in a tone of deep disappointment. “Oh, why, why?”
John felt ridiculously unhappy. She believed, after all, in the
incredible fairy-tale.
“Perhaps it was n't such a gorgeous palace as I made out,” he confessed
lamely. “As the cooks say, my hand was rather heavy with the gold and
marble.” She laughed, to his intense relief. “I have felt since that
there was a little poetic exaggeration somewhere. But it must be a
beautiful place, all the same.” His spirits sank again. “I could walk
about it blindfold, although we have n't talked of it for so long. Who
is living there now?”
“I 've sold it, dear, to some king of the Cannibal Islands,” he declared
in desperate and ponderous jest.
“So there's no more palace?”
“No more,” said he.
“I 'm sorry,” said Stellamaris--“so sorry.” She smiled at him, but the
tears came into her eyes. “I was looking forward so to seeing it. You
see, dear, I've lived in it for such a long, long time!”
“There are hundreds of wonder-houses for you to see when you get
strong,” said John, by way of consolation, yet hating himself.
“Westminster Abbey and Windsor Castle, and so on. Yes,” said Stella,
“but they 've none of them been part of me.”
So he discovered that, at one-and-twenty, on the eve of her entrance
into the world of reality, the being most sacred to him still dwelt in
her Land of Illusion. Two or three frank words would have been enough to
bring down to nothingness the baseless fabric of his castle in the
air, his palace of dreams; but he dreaded the shock of such seismic
convulsion. He had lied for years, putting all that was godlike of his
imperfect humanity into his lies, so as to bring a few hours' delight
into the life of this fragile creature whom he worshiped, secure in the
conviction that the lies would live for ever and ever as vital truths,
without chance of detection. And now that chance, almost the certainty,
had come.
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