England -- Fiction; Invalids -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“It _was_ good of you to come, Mr. Herold. I scarcely dared ask you,
but--”
“What's gone wrong?” he asked, with a smile.
She began her tale: how her guardian neither ate nor slept, how he tore
up page after page of copy,--he who used to write straight ahead; she
found the pieces in the waste paper basket,--how he was growing gloomy
and haggard and ill. Her woman's mind laid pathetic stress on these
outward and visible signs.
“You must have noticed the difference in him, Mr. Herold,” she said
tearfully.
He nodded. John took trouble badly, which was one of the reasons
that endeared Herold to him. In some aspects he was nothing but a
Pantagruelian infant; but it was no use discoursing on this to Unity.
“He feels things very deeply,” he said instead.
“Would n't you, if you loved Miss Stella, and never saw or heard from
her?”
“I should,” said he, with a smile.
“And she loves him. I know it. And she feels deeply, too.”
He acquiesced. “She, too, is very unhappy.”
“And they 're separated forever because they can't marry?”
“That is so, Unity,” said he.
“Why can't he get rid of her--the other woman I mean?” cried Unity,
fiercely.
“She has given him no grounds for divorce.”
Unity twisted her handkerchief in her hands. “I suppose there comes a
time,” she said, “when people can't stand any more suffering, and they
break down or do something dreadful.”
“Your guardian is too strong for that,” replied Herold.
“I don't know. I don't know.” The mothering instinct spoke. “That 's
what I 've come to ask you about. I'm frightened.”
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She turned on him a miserable, scared face and told him of her
discovery. She had gone into her guardian's study that morning in order
to tidy up, and had seen that he had left the key in the lock of his
private drawer, with the rest of the bunch hanging from it. She had
opened the drawer and found, lying on top of some documents one of which
was a sealed envelope endorsed “My Will,” a loaded revolver and a case
of cartridges. She knew that the revolver was loaded because she had
examined it. Then, hearing his step, she had shut the drawer, and gone
on with her dusting. He had entered, locked the drawer, put the bunch in
his pocket, and gone out without a word.
Herold looked grave. More in order to gain time for reflection than to
administer a moral lesson, he said:
“You should n't have searched his private drawer, Unity.”
“I'd search anything, if only I could find a way of helping him,” she
replied impetuously. “When I see him suffer and can't do anything for
him, I feel crazy. I can't sleep sometimes, and stand outside his door
in the middle of the night. It does n't matter whether I ought n't to
have done it or not,” she cried with an awkward and impatient gesture;
“I did it, and I found what I found. What I want to know is, Why should
my guardian make his will and keep a loaded revolver in his room unless
he thought that--that he was going to die?”
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