Short stories, American; United States -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
She stood unsteadily; she lifted her joined hands; her upturned face
was aflame, but she could not speak. Then her self-repression broke
down. She sank upon the rock and covered her face, and wept
uncontrollably. He threw himself beside her.
"Oh, is it true?" he besought her. "Can it be true?"
"Yes!--yes!" she cried, sobbing vehemently. "I tried to keep it down;
I would not hear it. I tried to do right. But I can't help it now."
He turned his face up to the sky and groaned. "O God!" It was as if
heaven came within his reach, and resistless hands stretched out and
held him back. But it was too much. Fierce joy rushed upon him and
swept away everything else. He stretched out his arms; he bowed over
her; he caught her and held her fast. The sun leaped up in the sky.
The waves and the winds sang together. There was a new heaven and a
new earth! "O Stella!" was all he said.
She lay still; she had no strength. But soon she found faint voice:
"O Lawrence, I am so weak! You must help me to do right."
"Help you!" he cried, piteously. "Help the angels of light! O Stella,
Stella! Don't trust in me. I have no goodness but yours, no right but
you. I had rather the tide would rise over us here, than have to go
away from you."
She sobbed, then turned her head with a long, long breath, and slowly,
steadily, with weak, limp fingers began to loosen his clasp and raise
herself up. He let her go. The world seemed slipping from him; the
shadows of night fell about him. They sat side by side and looked at
each other.
"Is there no way?" he asked.
"No,--no way but one."
She tried to stanch her tears, but they would flow.
"Don't cry, don't cry!" he besought. "I can't bear that."
"Oh, never mind," she replied. "It's a relief to cry; I am not
altogether unhappy. It is very bitter at first, and chokes me."
She bowed her face a moment, then lifted it and went on, with the
tears in her eyes and voice:
"No; there is only one way. Even if it were easier, I could not thrust
her out, I should hate myself if I did; you yourself would despise me.
If we could enter heaven by shutting the door upon her, could we be
happy walking together in the golden streets? Would not the thought of
her wandering in outer darkness come in and torment us and make us
afraid? I do not grudge her,--at least, at least----" Her voice
faltered, but rose again. "I ought not. I do pity her with all my
heart. If I should take away the only good she has, would it not turn
to my curse?"
They had risen and stood on the sand. His eyes were bent upon her; her
words played on him like the winds on a harp.
"Do right; do right?" he exclaimed. "Whatever you do or say is right
to me."
Her head dropped. She lifted her hands; she spoke brokenly.
"Do not speak so; help me; I am weak too."
He caught her hands.
"Forgive me,--I will, I will, I know I could die for you. Can I not
live and endure for your sake? Look up! look up."
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