Stories by English Authors: London (Selected by Scribners)
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Stories by English Authors: London (Selected by Scribners)
London (England) -- Fiction; Short stories, English
“Don’t worry yourself,” he answered, kindly. “Be brave and strong, and
let the rest go. I should like to live long enough to see what you will
make of your life. I believe you will never be false to yourself or to
any one. That is rare. I believe you will not let any lower ideal take
the place of your high ideal of what is beautiful and noble in art, in
life. I believe that you will never let despair get the upper hand of
you. If it does you may as well die; yes, you may as well. And I entreat
you not to lose your entire faith in humanity. There is nothing like
that for withering up the very core of the heart. I tell you, humanity
and nature have so much in common with each other that if you lose part
of your pleasure in the latter; you will see less beauty in the trees,
the flowers, and the fields, less grandeur in the mighty mountains and
the sea. The seasons will come and go, and you will scarcely heed their
coming and going: winter will settle over your soul, just as it settled
over mine. And you see what I am.”
They had now passed into the cloisters, and they sat down in one of
the recesses of the windows, and looked out upon the rich plot of
grass which the cloisters enclose. There was not a soul there except
themselves; the cool and the quiet and the beauty of the spot refreshed
these pilgrims, and they rested in calm enjoyment.
Helen was the first to break the silence.
“I am glad you have brought me here,” she said; “I shall never grumble
now at not being able to afford a fortnight in the country. This is
better than anything else.”
“It has always been my summer holiday to come here,” he said. “When
I first came I was like you, young and hopeful, and I had wonderful
visions of what I intended to do and to be. Here it was I made a vow
that I would become a great painter, and win for myself a resting place
in this very abbey. There is humour in the situation, is there not?”
“I don’t like to hear you say that,” she answered. “It is not always
possible for us to fulfil all our ambitions. Still, it is better to have
had them, and failed of them, than not to have had them at all.”
“Possibly,” he replied, coldly. Then he added, “I wish you would tell me
about yourself. You have always interested me.”
“I have nothing to tell you about myself,” she answered, frankly. “I am
alone in the world, without friends and without relations. The very name
I use is not a real name. I was a foundling. At times I am sorry I do
not belong to any one, and at other times I am glad. You know I am fond
of books and of art, so my life is not altogether empty; and I find my
pleasure in hard work. When I saw you at the gallery I wished to know
you, and I asked one of the students who you were. He told me you were
a misanthrope. Then I did not care so much about knowing you, until one
day you spoke to me about my painting, and that was the beginning of our
friendship.”
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