Well, and all this while Faith wasn’t standing still; she was changing
steadily, as much as ever the moon changed in the sky. I noticed it first
one day when Mr. Gabriel’d caught every child in the region and given
them a picnic in the woods of the Stack-Yard-Gate, and Faith was nowhere
to be seen tiptoeing round every one as she used to do, but I found her
at last standing at the head of the table,——Mr. Gabriel dancing here and
there, seeing to it that all should be as gay as he seemed to be,——quiet
and dignified as you please, and feeling every one of her inches. But
it wasn’t dignity really that was the matter with Faith,——it was just
gloom. She’d brighten up for a moment or two, and then down would fall
the cloud again; she took to long fits of dreaming, and sometimes she’d
burst out crying at any careless word, so that my heart fairly bled for
the poor child,——for one couldn’t help seeing that she’d some secret
unhappiness or other,——and I was as gentle and soothing to her as it’s in
my nature to be. She was in to our house a good deal; she kept it pretty
well out of Dan’s way, and I hoped she’d get over it sooner or later,
and make up her mind to circumstances. And I talked to her a sight about
Dan, praising him constantly before her, though I couldn’t bear to do
it; and finally, one very confidential evening, I told her that I’d been
in love with Dan myself once a little, but I’d seen that he would marry
her, and so had left off thinking about it; for, do you know, I thought
it might make her set more price on him now, if she knew somebody else
had ever cared for him. Well, that did answer awhile: whether she thought
she ought to make it up to Dan, or whether he really did grow more in her
eyes, Faith got to being very neat and domestic and praiseworthy. But
still there was the change, and it didn’t make her any the less lovely.
Indeed, if I’d been a man, I should have cared for her more than ever:
it was like turning a child into a woman: and I really think, as Dan saw
her going about with such a pleasant gravity, her pretty figure moving so
quietly, her pretty face so still and fair, as if she had thoughts and
feelings now, he began to wonder what had come over Faith, and, if she
were really as charming as this, why he hadn’t felt it before; and then,
you know, whether you love a woman or not, the mere fact that she’s your
wife, that her life is sunk in yours, that she’s something for you to
protect, and that your honor lies in doing so, gives you a certain kindly
feeling that might ripen into love any day under sunshine and a south
wall.
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