Meantime, whatever may be thought of a sudden death as a mere variety in
the modes of dying, where death in some shape is inevitable,—a question
which, equally in the Roman and the Christian sense, will be variously
answered according to each man’s variety of temperament,—certainly, upon
one aspect of sudden death there can be no opening for doubt, that of all
agonies incident to man it is the most frightful, that of all martyrdoms
it is the most freezing to human sensibilities,—namely, where it
surprises a man under circumstances which offer (or which seem to offer)
some hurried and inappreciable chance of evading it. Any effort, by which
such an evasion can be accomplished, must be as sudden as the danger
which it affronts. Even _that_, even the sickening necessity for hurrying
in extremity where all hurry seems destined to be vain, self-baffled, and
where the dreadful knell of _too_ late is already sounding in the ears
by anticipation,—even that anguish is liable to a hideous exasperation
in one particular case, namely, where the agonizing appeal is made not
exclusively to the instinct of self-preservation, but to the conscience
on behalf of another life besides your own, accidentally cast upon _your_
protection. To fail, to collapse in a service merely your own, might seem
comparatively venial; though, in fact, it is far from venial. But to
fail in a case where Providence has suddenly thrown into your hands the
final interests of another,—of a fellow-creature shuddering between the
gates of life and death; this, to a man of apprehensive conscience, would
mingle the misery of an atrocious criminality with the misery of a bloody
calamity. The man is called upon, too probably, to die; but to die at
the very moment when, by any momentary collapse, he is self-denounced as
a murderer. He had but the twinkling of an eye for his effort, and that
effort might, at the best, have been unavailing; but from this shadow
of a chance, small or great, how if he has recoiled by a treasonable
_lâcheté_? The effort _might_ have been without hope; but to have risen
to the level of that effort would have rescued him, though not from
dying, yet from dying as a traitor to his duties.
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