Suddenly from thoughts like these I was awakened to a sullen sound, as
of some motion on the distant road. It stole upon the air for a moment;
I listened in awe; but then it died away. Once roused, however, I could
not but observe with alarm the quickened motion of our horses. Ten years’
experience had made my eye learned in the valuing of motion; and I saw
that we were now running thirteen miles an hour. I pretend to no presence
of mind. On the contrary, my fear is, that I am miserably and shamefully
deficient in that quality as regards action. The palsy of doubt and
distraction hangs like some guilty weight of dark unfathomed remembrances
upon my energies, when the signal is flying for _action_. But, on the
other hand, this accursed gift I have, as regards _thought_, that in
the first step towards the possibility of a misfortune, I see its total
evolution; in the radix I see too certainly and too instantly its entire
expansion; in the first syllable of the dreadful sentence, I read already
the last. It was not that I feared for ourselves. What could injure _us_?
Our bulk and impetus charmed us against peril in any collision. And I had
rode through too many hundreds of perils that were frightful to approach,
that were matter of laughter as we looked back upon them, for any anxiety
to rest upon _our_ interests. The mail was not built, I felt assured,
nor bespoke, that could betray _me_ who trusted to its protection. But
any carriage that we could meet would be frail and light in comparison
of ourselves. And I remarked this ominous accident of our situation. We
were on the wrong side of the road. But then the other party, if other
there was, might also be on the wrong side; and two wrongs might make a
right. _That_ was not likely. The same motive which had drawn _us_ to the
right-hand side of the road, namely, the soft beaten sand, as contrasted
with the paved centre, would prove attractive to others. Our lamps, still
lighted, would give the impression of vigilance on our part. And every
creature that met us would rely upon _us_ for quartering. All this, and
if the separate links of the anticipation had been a thousand times more,
I saw, not discursively or by effort, but as by one flash of horrid
intuition.
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