Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 3: Analysis of the Sexual Impulse; Love and Pain; The Sexual Impulse in WomenEllis, Havelock
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Studies in the Psychology of Sex, Volume 3: Analysis of the Sexual Impulse; Love and Pain; The Sexual Impulse in Women
Ellis, Havelock
Sex; Sex (Psychology)
On one other occasion only have I had coitus
with a non-professional unmarried woman. Shortly after this I
caught syphilis from a girl of the streets. I was circumcised and
stayed in a private hospital for six weeks. It never went beyond
the primary stage, and I have felt no ill effects from it, except
that I have got a hydrocele in the right testicle. Of course,
this incident necessitated the use of a condom on every occasion,
and it greatly spoiled my pleasure. About this time a
brother-officer older than myself made advances to me. He
compared me to a Greek statue, and wanted to kiss me. I would
have nothing to do with him, but was glad to have his confessions
of homosexuality and somewhat surprised to learn that he was not
alone in the regiment. I afterward fell in love with his sister,
and he married and had children. He was bisexual in his
inclinations, but was really in love with me for a short time.
"I had little to do with professionals until I went to South
Africa, and though I was fond of ladies' society, and liked by
ladies, I looked upon them as something apart, especially married
women, and never attempted to take liberties with them; though I
used to with shopgirls, etc., in my cramming days, and had often
been in love. In South Africa I first began really to enjoy
coitus, and on going to India continued to do so; in fact, I
thought sexually of nothing else and rarely masturbated,--perhaps
once in three weeks. I would go to brothels wherever they were
available, Durban, Cape Town, Colombo, Calcutta, Bombay, and at
one time preferred black women to white. I used to have horrible
orgies with my brother-officers, and on one occasion I ordered
six women to my bungalow in order to celebrate my birthday, and
made a present of them to five of my friends after dinner. During
this period, and until I went home, I rarely spoke to a lady, the
chief exception being No. 1, a brother-officer's wife, with whom
I began to be in love.
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