French fiction -- 20th century -- Translations into English
He knew very little about women. They fascinated him and disconcerted
him. Rather than know them he preferred to judge them. He idealized
some, he condemned others. Towards those who fell into neither of the
two categories he remained indifferent. Very young men--and Julien,
owing to the slightness of his experience, had remained very young--are
always hasty in their judgments. As they are full of themselves and
their desires, they seek in others only for what they wish to find.
Whether on the moral or the carnal side, naïve persons are like roués
in one respect: when they love they are always thinking of themselves
and never of the woman. They refuse to see that she exists outside of
them. Love is the one test that can teach them. It teaches the few who
are capable of learning--but generally to their cost and that of their
partners; for when at last they know it is too late. The naïve
astonishment, old as the ages, that bewails the irreducible duality
which is the bitter fruit of love, that disappointed dream of unity, is
the usual result of this initial misunderstanding. For what does "love"
mean if it is not "loving someone else"? Without possessing the egoism
of Roger Brissot, Julien, through ignorance, had no less difficulty in
getting outside of himself; and he had a still more limited view of the
feminine universe. He needed to be led prudently by the hand.
Prudent was the one thing Annette was not by nature, and love did not
teach her. It gave her the need of a generous confidence. Now that she
was sure of loving and being loved, she concealed nothing. Nothing in
the man she loved could have repelled her: why should she paint herself
up? She was healthy-minded, and she did not blush at being what she was.
Whoever loved her should see her as she was! She had clearly seen
Julien's naïveté, his lack of understanding, his alarm. She found a
tender and malicious pleasure in them. She was glad that she was the
first to reveal to him a feminine soul.
One day she went to surprise him in his apartment. His mother opened the
door. An old lady, with gray hair tightly drawn across a calm brow that
was lighted up by two severe, watchful eyes, she inspected Annette with
a distrustful politeness and showed her into a neat, cold little
drawing-room with horsehair furniture.
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