Sylvia & Michael: The later adventures of Sylvia ScarlettMacKenzie, Compton
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Sylvia & Michael: The later adventures of Sylvia Scarlett
MacKenzie, Compton
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Want of food prevented Sylvia from sleeping, and in her overwrought
spirit those good-night words of Queenie seemed to presage the collapse
of everything.
"It shall not be. It shall not be," she vowed to herself. "I will not be
defeated by squalid circumstances in this dreary little Rumanian town.
If thirteen years ago I could sell my body to save my soul, now I can
sell my body to save the soul of another. Surely that sacrifice will
defeat futility. I had a presentiment of this situation when I was
arguing with Philip that afternoon. I warned him that nothing should
stand in my way over this girl. And nothing shall! To-morrow I will
invite this youth who is the son of the richest man in Avereshti. He
will not refuse me twenty francs for my body. If I cannot do this I am
worth no more than those trinkets that the jeweler refused to buy for
ten francs. I will do this, and accept its accomplishment as the sign
that I have fought long enough. Then I will go to Philip and tell him
what his refusal has brought about. I will _make_ him give me the
passport. But suppose that he is no longer capable of being horrified?
Suppose that my behavior of thirteen years ago has rendered him proof
against such an emotion? Oh well, we shall see. Am I light-headed? No,
no, no. On the contrary, hunger makes one clear-sighted. It must be. It
shall be. The duty of the human soul lies in such a complete, such a
reckless, such a relentless, such a victorious self-will as can only be
assuaged by self-sacrifice. This is the great paradox of life. This is
the divine egotism."
Toward dawn Sylvia slept, and woke at sunrise from dreams that were
strangely serene in contrast with the tormenting fevers of the night, to
find that Queenie was still fast asleep. The beauty of her lying there
in this lucid and golden morn was like the beauty of a flower that
blooms at daybreak in a remote garden. It was a beauty that caught at
Sylvia's heart, a beauty that could only be expressed with tears which
were silent as the dew and which, like the dew, sparkled in the daybreak
of the soul.
"It is through such tears that people have seen the fairies," she
murmured.
Sylvia half raised herself in bed, and, leaning upon her elbow, she
watched the sleeping girl so intently that it seemed as if some of
herself was passing away to Queenie. This still and virginal hour was
indeed time transmuted to the timelessness of dreams, in which absolute
love like a note of music rose quivering upon its own shed sweetness to
such an ecstasy of sustained emotion that the barest memory of it would
secure the wakeful one forever against disillusionment.
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