Tales and Stories: Now First CollectedShelley, Mary Wollstonecraft
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Tales and Stories: Now First Collected
Shelley, Mary Wollstonecraft
English fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, English
“Is it even so?” cried Sir Richard; “and is he to succeed in all?”
“You mistake,” I said; for I had a horror of confessing an attachment
which, after all, I did not feel, and so of making our engagement more
binding. But I blushed deeply as I spoke, and my uncle looked
incredulous, and said,—
“Yet it would make you very unhappy if he married another.”
“Oh no!” I cried, “he has my free leave. I should wish him joy with all
my heart.”
The idea—the hope that he was playing me false, and might release me
from my trammels, darted through my mind with a quick thrill of delight.
Sir Richard saw that I was in earnest, and his countenance cleared.
“What a strange thing is maiden coyness,” he observed; “you blushed so
prettily, Ellen, that I could have sworn you had given your heart to
Vernon. But I see I was mistaken; I am glad of it, for he would not suit
you.”
No more was said, but I felt conscience-stricken and miserable. I had
deceived my uncle, and yet I had not. I had declared that I did not love
him to whom I had pledged my hand; and the whole was a mystery and an
entanglement that degraded me in my own eyes. I longed to make a full
confession; yet then all would be over—we should both be inextricably
bound. As it was, some caprice might cause Vernon to transfer his
affection to another, and I could give him entire freedom, without any
human being knowing how foolishly I had acted.
We had no guests at dinner; Sir Richard was to leave us early the next
morning. After dinner I speedily retired to the drawing-room, leaving
father and son together; they remained two hours. I was on the point of
withdrawing to my own room, to avoid a meeting which alarmed me, I knew
not why, when they entered. It seemed as if, in the interval of my
absence, they had received sudden intelligence of a dear friend’s death;
and yet not quite so, for though Vernon looked absorbed in thought, his
gloom was strangely interspersed with glances of swelling triumph; his
smiles were no longer sneers—yet they did not betray a sunshine of the
heart, but rather joy on a bad victory. He looked on me askance, with a
kind of greedy satisfaction, and at his father with scorn. I trembled,
and turned to my uncle; but sadness and confusion marked his features—he
was stamped as with disgrace, and quailed beneath my eye; though
presently he rallied, drew a chair near, and was kinder than ever. He
told me that he was going up to town on the morrow, and that Vernon was
to accompany him; he asked me if there was anything he could do for me,
and testified his affection by a thousand little attentions. Vernon said
nothing, and took leave of me so coldly, that I thought his manner
implied that he expected to see me in the morning. Thinking it right to
indulge him, I rose early; but he did not come down till long after Sir
Richard, who thanked me for my kindness in disturbing myself on his
account. They went away immediately after breakfast, and Vernon’s formal
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