But I am wandering from my story. I was now left alone with one
of the robbers, the confidential companion of the chief. He was
the youngest and most vigorous of the band, and though his
countenance had something of that dissolute fierceness which
seems natural to this desperate, lawless mode of life, yet there
were traits of manly beauty about it. As an artist I could not
but admire it. I had remarked in him an air of abstraction and
reverie, and at times a movement of inward suffering and
impatience. He now sat on the ground; his elbows on his knees,
his head resting between his clenched fists, and his eyes fixed
on the earth with an expression of sad and bitter rumination. I
had grown familiar with him from repeated conversations, and had
found him superior in mind to the rest of the band. I was anxious
to seize every opportunity of sounding the feelings of these
singular beings. I fancied I read in the countenance of this one
traces of self-condemnation and remorse; and the ease with which
I had drawn forth the confidence of the chieftain encouraged me
to hope the same with his followers.
After a little preliminary conversation, I ventured to ask him if
he did not feel regret at having abandoned his family and taken
to this dangerous profession. “I feel,” replied he, “but one
regret, and that will end only with my life;” as he said this he
pressed his clenched fists upon his bosom, drew his breath
through his set teeth, and added with deep emotion, “I have
something within here that stifles me; it is like a burning iron
consuming my very heart. I could tell you a miserable story, but
not now—another time.”—He relapsed into his former position, and
sat with his head between his hands, muttering to himself in
broken ejaculations, and what appeared at times to be curses and
maledictions. I saw he was not in a mood to be disturbed, so I
left him to himself. In a little time the exhaustion of his
feelings, and probably the fatigues he had undergone in this
expedition, began to produce drowsiness. He struggled with it for
a time, but the warmth and sultriness of mid-day made it
irresistible, and he at length stretched himself upon the herbage
and fell asleep.
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