"Then listen:--You must purchase at various shops, and on various
occasions, not to excite suspicion, all that is necessary for female
dress, and we must make it up, complete, the size to fit my lord. I
have one in my thoughts whom he may personate: she is very tall; and
though slender, her present condition makes her appear more stout than
usual, when wrapt in a loose cloak. She suspects not my design,--nor
must she;--for she is timid, and might betray all by her fears. She
must not know till too far engaged to retreat.--And now, Amy, send
Walter Elliot to the Tower to inquire of the lieutenant at what hour
to-morrow the Countess of Nithsdale may be admitted to visit her lord.
I am informed that, after the sentence, we are to be allowed to see the
prisoners freely; and it will be best we should do this openly. Alas!
the hardest task of all will be to work on my lord to consent."
"And, madam, think you I also shall be admitted to see my lord?"
"Assuredly, I hope so; I trust we shall procure admission for many of
his friends: it is upon that understanding I build my hopes. I have
been informed that when sentence is once passed, such has usually
been the custom. And now away; let us be stirring. I would there were
something to be done every hour in the day. It is in solitude and
inaction that my sorrows press upon me most heavily. But to-night there
is no more I can effect; I must even wait for the morrow!"
Soon after the Earl of Nithsdale had been reconducted to his lodgings
in the Tower, he heard the striking of the chapel-clock: "It is now
more than an hour," he thought, "since the court broke up. By this time
the news has reached her. By this time my dear wife knows my sentence,
and those hopes which she was resolved to cherish, and which she never
would allow me gradually to undermine, have been destroyed at one rude
blow. Would I could know how it fares with her, how she supports the
shock! To-morrow I shall see her; and strange is it, but I dread to
see her--I dread the sight of her despair. Oh! were it not better to
pass unloved into the grave, than to feel that one's fate inflicts such
exquisite anguish on her, to spare whom a pang such as she now suffers,
one would willingly endure any lengthened torture. Yet could I wish to
lose one particle of that affection which alone suffices to make life
so precious? It may be cruel,--it may be selfish;--but no! I cannot
wish her love to be less! After all, we part but for a time! I do not
doubt that we shall meet where the weary are at rest. And now that
all hope is over, my Winifred will assist me to prepare my soul for
the great change; and she will bear to speak placidly and composedly
of those happy regions where the fear of parting will never embitter
the enjoyment of each other's presence! and I shall be able calmly and
cheerfully to fulfil my destiny, if I can see her resigned!"
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