England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; English fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, English
She paid no visible heed to my question. Indeed she seemed for the
moment unconscious of me. It was October; a small bright fire burned on
the hearth. She turned to it, stretching out her hands to the warmth.
She spoke, and I listened. “It would be a fine thing,” she said, “to be
the first to believe--the first to give evidence of belief--perhaps the
finest thing to be the first and last--to be the only one to give
everything one had in evidence.” She faced round on me suddenly.
“Everything--if one dared!”
“If you were very sure----” I began.
“No!” she interrupted. “Say, if I had courage--courage to defy, courage
for a great venture!”
“Yes, it’s better put like that.”
“But people don’t realise--indeed they don’t--how much it needs.”
“I think I realise it a little better.” She made no comment on that, and
I held out my hand. “I should like to help, you know,” I said, “but I
expect you’ve got to fight it out alone.”
She pressed my hand in a very friendly way, saying, “Any single human
being’s sympathy helps.”
That was not, perhaps, a very flattering remark, but it seemed to me
pathetic, coming from the proud, the rich, the beautiful Miss
Constantine. To this she was reduced in her struggle against her mighty
foe. Any ally, however humble, was precious in her fight against what
was expected of her.
V
Miss Constantine’s suppression of names, and her studious use of the
hypothetical mood in putting her case, forbade me saying she had told me
that in her opinion Valentine Hare was a nobody and Oliver Kirby a great
man, although the world might be pleased to hold just the opposite view.
Still less had she told me that, in consequence of this opinion of hers,
she would let the nobody go and cling to the great man; she had merely
discerned and pictured that course of action as being a very splendid
and a very brave thing--more splendid and brave, just in proportion to
the world’s lack of understanding. Whether she would do it remained
exceedingly doubtful; there was that heavy weight of what was expected
of her. But what she had done, by the revelation of her feelings, was to
render the problem of whether she would embrace her great venture or
forgo it one of much interest to me. The question of her moral courage
remained open; but there was now no question as to her intellectual
courage. Her brain could see and dared to see--whether or not she would
dare to be guided by its eyes. Her achievement was really
considerable--to look so plainly, so clearly and straight, through all
externals; to pierce behind incomparable Val’s shop-window
accomplishments, his North Africa, his linguistic accomplishments, Duc
de Reichstadt, French plays, literary essays, even his supremely
plausible and persuasive “Religion of Primitive Man” (which did look so
solid on a first consideration)--to go right by all these, and ask what
was the real value of the stock in the recesses of the shop! And,
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