For a long time he stood there motionless and then, slowly, he commenced
to grope his way forward. Four steps he took before he touched the wall
and this he followed two steps to the end, and there he turned and took
six steps to cross before he reached the wall on the opposite side, and
thus he made the circuit of his dungeon and found that it was four by
six paces—perhaps not small for a dungeon, but narrower than the grave
for Tanar of Pellucidar.
He tried to think—to think how he could occupy his time until death
released him. Death! Could he not hasten it? But how? Six paces was the
length of his prison cell. Could he not dash at full speed from one end
to the other, crushing his brains out by the impact? And then he
recalled his promise to Stellara, even in the face of her appeal to him
to take his own life—“I shall not die of my own hand.”
Again he made the circuit of his dungeon. He wondered how they would
feed him, for he knew that they would feed him because they wished him
to live as long as possible, as only thus might they encompass his
torture. He thought of the bright sun shining down upon the table-lands
of Sari. He thought of the young men and the maidens there free and
happy. He thought of Stellara, so close, up there above him somewhere,
and yet so infinitely far away. If he were dead, they would be closer.
“Not by my own hand,” he muttered.
He tried to plan for the future—the blank, dark, silent future—the
eternity of loneliness that confronted him, and he found that through
the despair of utter hopelessness his own unconquerable spirit could
still discern hope, for no matter what his plans they all looked forward
to a day of freedom and he realized that nothing short of death ever
could rob him of this solace, and so his plan finally developed.
He must in some way keep his mind from dwelling constantly upon the
present. He must erase from it all consideration of the darkness, the
silence and the solitude that surrounded him. And he must keep fit,
mentally and physically, for the moment of release or escape. And so he
planned to walk and to exercise his arms and the other muscles of his
body systematically to the end that he might keep in good condition and
at the same time induce sufficient fatigue to enable him to sleep as
much as possible, and when he rested preparatory to sleep he
concentrated his mind entirely upon pleasant memories. And when he put
the plan into practice he found that it was all that he had hoped that
it would be. He exercised until he was thoroughly fatigued and then he
lay down to pleasant day dreams until sleep claimed him. Being
accustomed from childhood to sleeping upon hard ground, the stone
flagging gave him no particular discomfort and he was asleep in the
midst of pleasant memories of happy hours with Stellara.
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