He wished that he knew how the food was brought to his cell, that he
might know if there was danger that those who brought it could hear him
scraping at the mortar in the wall, but as he never heard the food
brought he hoped that those who brought it could not hear him and he was
quite sure that they could not see him.
And so he worked on unceasingly until at last he had scratched away an
opening large enough to admit his body, and then for a long time he sat
before it, waiting, seeking to assure himself that he was master of his
mind, for in this eternal night of solitude that had been his existence
for how long he could not even guess, he realized that this adventure
which he was facing had assumed such momentous proportions that once
more he felt himself upon the brink of madness. And now he wanted to
make sure that no matter what lay beyond that aperture he could meet it
with calm nerves and a serene and sane, mind, for he could not help but
realize that keen disappointment might be lying in wait for him, since
during all the long periods of his scratching and scraping since he had
discovered the hole through which the snakes came into his cell he had
realized that a hope of escape was the foundation of the desire that
prompted him to prosecute the work. And though he expected to be
disappointed he knew how cruel would be the blow when it fell.
With a touch that was almost a caress he let his fingers run slowly over
the rough edges of the enlarged aperture. He inserted his head and
shoulders into it and reached far out upon the other side, groping with
a hand that found nothing, searching with eyes that saw nothing, and
then he drew himself back into his dungeon and walked to its far end and
sat down upon the floor and leaned back against the wall and
waited—waited because he did not dare to pass that aperture to face some
new discouragement.
It took him a long time to master himself, and then he waited again. But
this time, after reasoned consideration of the matter that filled his
mind.
He would wait until they brought his food and had taken away the empty
receptacle—that he might be given a longer interval before possible
discovery of his absence, in the event he did not return to his cell.
And though he went often to the corner where the food was ordinarily
deposited, it seemed an eternity before he found it there. And after he
had eaten it, another eternity before the receptacle was taken away; but
at last it was removed. And once again he crossed his cell and stood
before the opening that led he knew not where.
This time he did not hesitate. He was master of his mind and nerves.
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