Only a week or ten days away from his love affair with Bertha, Tarr was
now coming back to the old haunts and precincts of his infatuation. He
was living it all over again in memory, the central and all the accessory
figures still in exactly the same place. Suddenly, everything to do with
“those days,” as he thought of a week or two before (or what had ended
officially then) had become very pleasing. Bertha’s women friends were
delightful landmarks. Tarr could not understand how it was he had not
taken an interest in them before. They had so much of the German savour
of that life lived with Bertha about them!
But not only with them, but with _Bertha herself_ he was likewise
carrying on this mysterious retrospective life. He was so delighted,
as a fact, to be free of Bertha that he poetized herself and all her
belongings.
On this particular second visit to Fräulein Lipmann’s he met Anastasya
Vasek. She, at least, was nothing to do with his souvenirs. Yet, not
realizing her as an absolute new-comer at once, he accepted her as
another proof of how delightful these people in truth were.
He had been a very silent guest so far. They were curious to hear what
this enigma should eventually say, when it decided to speak.
“How is Bertha?” they had asked him.
“She has got a cold,” he had answered. It was a fact that she had caught
a summer cold several days before.—“How strange!” they thought.—“So he
sees her still!”
“She hasn’t been to Flobert’s lately,” Renée Lipmann said. “I’ve been so
busy, or I’d have gone round to see her. She’s not in bed, is she?”
“Oh, no, she’s just got a slight cold. She’s very well otherwise,” Tarr
answered.
Bertha disappears. Tarr turns up tranquilly in her place. Was he a
substitute? What could all this mean? Their first flutter over, their
traditional hostility for him reawakened. He had always been an arrogant,
eccentric, and unpleasant person: “Homme égoïste! Homme sensuel!” in Van
Bencke’s famous words.
On seeing him talking with new liveliness, not displayed with them, to
Anastasya, suspicions began to germinate. Even such shrewd intuition, a
development from the reality, as this: “_Perhaps getting to like Germans,
and losing his first, he had come here to find another._” Comfortable
in his liberty, he was still enjoying, by proxy or otherwise, the
satisfaction of slavery.
The arrogance implied by his infatuation for the commonplace was taboo.
He must be more humble, he felt, and take an interest in his equals.
He had been “Homme égoïste” so far, but “Homme sensuel” was an
exaggeration. His concupiscence had been undeveloped. His Bertha, if she
had not been a joke, would not have satisfied him. She did not succeed
in waking his senses, although she had attracted them. There was no more
reality in their sex relations than in their other relations.
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