“Good-bye, if you like,” he said at length. “But I see no reason why
we should part in this manner. If Kreisler wouldn’t mind”—he looked
after him—“we might go for a little walk. Or will you come and have an
_apéritif_?”
“No, Sorbert, I’d rather not.—Let us say good-bye at once; will you?”
“My dear girl, don’t be so silly!” He took her arm and dragged her
towards a café, the first on the boulevard they were approaching.
She hung back, prolonging the personal contact, yet pretending to be
resisting it _with wonder_.
“I can’t, Sorbert. Je ne _peux_ pas!” purring her lips out and rolling
her eyes. She went to the café in the end. For some time conversation
hung back.
“How is Fräulein Lipmann getting on?”
“I don’t know. I haven’t seen her.”
“Ah!”
Tarr felt he had five pieces to play. He had played one. The other four
he toyed with in a lazy way.
“Van Bencke?”
“I have not seen her.”
That left three.
“How is Isolde?”
“I don’t know.”
“Seen the Kinderbachs?”
“One of them.”
“How is Clara?”
“Clara? She is quite well, I think.”
The solder for the pieces of this dialogue was a dreary grey matter that
Bertha supplied. Their talk was an unnecessary column on the top of which
she perched herself with glassy quietude.
She turned to him abruptly as though he had been hiding behind her, and
tickling her neck with a piece of feather-grass.
“Why did you leave me, Sorbert?—_Why_ did you leave me?”
He filled his pipe, and then said, feeling like a bad actor:
“I went away at that particular moment, as you know, because I had heard
that Herr Kreisler⸺”
“Don’t speak to me about Kreisler—don’t mention his name, I _beg_ you.—I
hate that man.—Ugh!”
Genuine vehemence made Tarr have a look at her. Of course she would say
that. She was using too much genuineness, though, not to be rather flush
of it for the moment.
“But I don’t see⸺”
“Don’t; don’t!” She sat up suddenly in her chair and shook her finger
in his face. “If you mention Kreisler again, Sorbert, I shall _hate you
too_! I especially _pray_ you not to mention him.”
She collapsed, mouth drawn down at corners.
“As you like.” In insisting he would appear to be demanding an
explanation. Any hint of exceptional claims on her confidence must be
avoided.
“_Why_ did you leave me?—You don’t know.—I have been mad ever since. One
is as helpless as can be—When you are here once more, I feel how weak I
am without you. It has not been fair. I have felt just as though I had
got out of a sick-bed. I am not BLAMING you.”
They went to Flobert’s from the café. It was after nine o’clock, and the
place was empty. She bought a wing of chicken; at a dairy some salad and
eggs; two rolls at the baker’s, to make a cold supper at home. It was
more than she would need for herself. Sorbert did not offer to share the
expense. At the gate leading to her house he left her.
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