Anastasya looked blankly into him, as though he contained cheerless
stretches where no living thing could grow.
“You mean to say you’ve done that!”
“Yes; I have.”
“Why?”
Tarr stopped a moment.
“Well, the alleged reason was that she is enceinte.”
“But—whose is the child?”
“Kreisler’s, she says.”
The statement, she saw, was genuine. He was telling her what he had been
doing. They both immediately retired into themselves, she to distance
and stow away their former dialogue and consider the meaning of this
new fact; he to wait, his hand near his mouth holding a pipe, until she
should have collected herself. But he began speaking first:
“Things are exactly the same as before. I was bound to do that. I had
allowed her to consider herself engaged a year ago, and had to keep
to that. I have merely gone back a year into the past and fulfilled a
pledge, and now return to you. All is in perfect order.”
“All is _not_ in perfect order. It is Kreisler’s child to begin with, you
say⸺”
“Yes, but it would be very mean to use that fact to justify one in
escaping from an obligation.”
“That is sentimentality.”
“Sentimentality! Sentimentality! Cannot _we_, you and I, afford to give
Bertha _that_? Sentimentality! What an absurd word that is with its
fierce use in our poor modern hands! What does it mean? Has life become
such an affair of economic calculation that men are too timid to allow
themselves any complicated pleasures? Where there is abundance you can
afford waste. Sentimentality is a cry on a level with the Simple Life!
The ideal of perfect success is an ideal belonging to the same sort of
individual as the inventor of Equal Rights of Man and Perfectibility.
Sentimentality is a _privilege_. It is a luxury that the crowd does not
feel itself equal to, once it begins to think about it. Besides, it is
different in different hands.”
“That may be true as regards sentimentality in general. But in this case
you have been guilty of a popular softness⸺”
“No. Listen. I will explain something to you You said a moment ago that
it was _Kreisler’s_ child. Well, that is my security! That _enables_ me
to commit this folly, without too great danger. It is an earnest of the
altruistic origin of the action not being forgotten!”
“But _that_—to return to _your_ words—is surely a very mean calculation?”
“Therefore it takes the softness out of the generous action it is allied
to⸺”
“No. It takes its _raison d’être_ away altogether. It leaves it merely a
stupid and unnecessary fact. It cancels the generosity, but leaves the
fact—your marriage.”
“But the _fact itself_ is altered by that!”
“In what way? You are now married to Bertha⸺”
“Yes, but what does that mean? I married Bertha this afternoon, and here
I am punctually and as usual with you this evening⸺”
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