England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction; Siblings -- Fiction
Without hesitation the answer came: "Certainly I do. I am positive
that I never did, and in my own mind I am equally certain that Mrs.
Blathwayte never did either. But where I was to blame was that when I
saw matters had gone wrong, I tried to set them right in my own way:
and I think probably that is what Mrs. Blathwayte tried to do also.
But there was some excuse for us. The happiness of her brother and my
sister mattered more to us than anything else in the world. Of course
I see now that you asked Miss Kingsnorth here on Fay's account, though
it was a ridiculous thing to do: but I own now you did it from a right
motive. But Fay believed you did it because you thought you would find
her too young and silly to be enough for you by herself, and so you
wanted your sister and me to relieve the tedium, and make things more
cheerful for you. That was Fay's idea, and I agreed with her. And
naturally I resented your putting your sister before mine. Any fellow
would."
"I never meant to."
"But you did. And it is for what we do that we are punished--not for
what we meant to do. It is a way of yours to mix up essentials with
non-essentials, and I expect always will be: I suppose you are made
like that, and can't help it. But if you'd only realised that the
important thing was not how Fay and Miss Kingsnorth got on together,
but how Fay and you got on together, all this misery would never have
happened."
I felt I could bear no more: so I went out alone into the autumn dusk
to commune with my own soul on the revelations which Frank had
vouchsafed to me. And when we met again, we did not refer to it, but
talked only on indifferent things. For the boy not only knew when to
speak: with a wisdom beyond his years he knew also when to be silent.
For several days I continued to commune with my own soul on the matters
which Frank had revealed to me. And as I did so the conviction
gradually took hold of me that I had been right in my ruthless decision
that as long as I lived I could never forgive the man who had come
between my wife and me: who had left my house unto me desolate, and had
driven forth my darling to her death.
And then wherever I went I heard nothing but one awful message: the
dying leaves whispered it, the dropping rain repeated it, and the
autumn winds thundered it in my ears: the message which long ago struck
terror and remorse to the heart of a great King struck terror and
remorse also to mine. Wherever I went and whatever I did I kept
hearing the appalling word of condemnation: "Thou art the man."
CHAPTER XXIII
THE PEACE OF GOD
I awoke one morning with a strange feeling that something wonderful had
happened during the night: and as my mind gradually cleared, I realised
what that something was.
I had forgiven Frank Wildacre.
Or, rather, I had come to the knowledge that there was nothing to
forgive: that the man whose insensate folly had spoilt my life and
Fay's was not Frank at all, but myself.
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