England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Husband and wife -- Fiction; Siblings -- Fiction
When Frank came down from Oxford at Christmas, he added to the general
hilarity, and welcomed me as a brother with an unconscious
condescension which amused as much as it gratified me. He, Fay and I,
formed a Triple Entente, from which everything that appertained to
middle age was excluded. So that I was not only happy for the first
time in my life--I was also young.
There was only one drawback to my perfect bliss--one crumpled rose-leaf
in my bed of roses, and that was my consciousness of the fact that Fay
and Annabel did not appreciate one another as thoroughly as I could
have wished. Of course I could see the reasonableness--one might
almost say the inevitableness--of this. In the first place, I could
not disguise it from myself that my marriage, even to any one as
completely adorable as Fay, was something of a blow to Annabel, who had
ruled so long and so undisputedly over her family circle. Ever since
she had been old enough to take the reins, she had taken them and had
grasped them firmly; neither I nor my father before me had ever dared
to lay so much as a restraining finger on them: therefore it must have
been terribly hard for her to find herself equalled--in some things
even superseded--by a girl nearly thirty years her junior. It was not
in human nature to avoid, however silently, resenting this, and
Annabel, though one of the best and wisest women that ever lived, was
nevertheless quite human.
On the other hand, I could not fail to see that Annabel's admirable
behaviour in accepting the situation as she did was utterly lost upon
Fay. Annabel was really behaving splendidly, and Fay was totally
unconscious of it. With (I am bound to admit it) the hardness of
youth, Fay was absolutely blind to Annabel's suffering; but at the same
time she was quick to perceive and to resent any curtness of manner or
sharpness of speech which were really only the outward symptoms of that
suffering. I own I was disappointed at this, but it could not be
helped, and I decided in my own mind to make up to Annabel in every way
that I could for Fay's lack of appreciation, of my sister's sacrifice,
until the time came--as it surely would come when they grew to know
each other better--when Fay would learn to love Annabel as I loved her.
That Annabel would ever learn to love Fay as I loved my darling was
obviously beyond the realms of possibility, for surely no human being
ever loved another as I loved Fay; but I felt sure that as the child
grew older and Annabel recognised the beautiful and endearing qualities
which were hidden under the bewitchingly frivolous and off-hand manner,
she too would recognise Fay's charm and reverence her character. At
any rate, I felt it would not be my fault if these, my two dearest,
failed eventually to love and appreciate one another; for I meant to
make it the object of my life to bring them to a fuller mutual
understanding, and to enable each to see and admire the good qualities
of the other.
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