lack-lustre eye, and drunken apathy, at the shattered man who was being
borne by.
Ah, God! what scenes were these! And of what other hidden wretchedness
and horror did they not indicate the existence! "Gracious mercy!"
thought Aubrey, "what a world have I been living in! And this dismal
aspect of it exposed to me just when I have lost all power of relieving
its wretchedness!"--here a thrill of anguish passed through his
heart--"but woe, woe is me! if at this moment I had a thousand times ten
thousand a-year, how far would it go amid the scenes similar to this,
_abounding_ in this one city? Oh God! what unutterable horror must be in
store for those who, intrusted by Thee with an overflowing abundance,
disregard the misery around them in guilty selfishness and indolence,
or"--he shuddered--"expend it in sensuality and profligacy! Will DIVES
become sensible of his misconduct, only when he shall have entered upon
his next stage of existence, and of punishment? Oh, merciful Creator!
how is my heart wrung by the sight of horrors such as these? Awful and
mysterious Author of our existence, _Father of the spirits of all
flesh_, are these states of being which Thou hast ordained? Are these
Thy children? Are these my fellow-creatures? Oh, help me! help me! my
weak heart faints; my clouded understanding is confounded! I
cannot--insect that I am!--discern the scope and end of Thy economy, of
Thy dread government of the world; yet blessed be the name of my God!--I
KNOW that _thou reignest!_ though _clouds and darkness are around thee!_
_righteousness and judgment are the habitation of thy throne!_ _with
righteousness shalt thou judge the world_, AND THE PEOPLE WITH EQUITY!"
Like as the lesser light is lost in the greater, so, in Aubrey's case,
was the lesser misery he suffered, merged in his sense of the greater
misery he witnessed. What, after all, was his position, in comparison
with that of those now before and around him? What cause of thankfulness
had he not, for the merciful mildness of even the dispensations of
Providence towards him? Such were his thoughts and feelings, as he stood
gazing at the objects which had called them forth, when his eye lit on
the figure of Mr. Gammon approaching him. He was threading his way,
apparently lost in thought, through the scenes which had so powerfully
affected Mr. Aubrey; who stood eying him with a sort of unconscious
intensity, as if secure from his observation, till he was actually
addressed by him.
"Mr. Aubrey!" exclaimed Gammon, courteously saluting him. Each took off
his hat to the other. Though Aubrey hardly intended it, he found himself
engaged in conversation with Gammon, who, in a remarkably feeling tone,
and with a happy flattering deference of manner, intimated that he could
guess the subject of Mr. Aubrey's thoughts, namely, the absorbing
matters which they had been discussing together.
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