Tennyson, Alfred Tennyson, Baron, 1809-1892 -- Friends and associates
Early in the year 1842, Spedding accompanied the first Lord Ashburton to
the United States as Secretary to a commission, the object of which was to
determine a boundary question which was successfully settled by the treaty
of Washington. He writes to Thompson from Gosport on February 9, 1842:
Having heard that you think I might have written to you upon the
occasion by my breaking out in this new light, and partly concurring
in that sentiment, and finding myself as much at leisure for the rest
of the evening as if the destinies of no country, much less the
destinies of two, depended upon me, I sit down to shake mental hands
with you, and to wish you prosperity during my eclipse and setting
behind the Atlantic.
I will not trouble you with explanations concerning my inducement for
taking so considerable a step as this. You will easily understand that
I had to listen to more inward voices than one, and to wait the result
of much confused inward debate before I decided to take it.
Fortunately there was no question as to the comparative worth of the
said two voices, nor any doubt as to the side on which they
respectively appeared. It was the Fiend, _i.e._ the baser nature, the
human instinct, that said, "Budge not." The better voice said, "Go,
why not?" The decision was soon taken, and being taken, the thing
itself seemed much easier than it looked at first. It is now above
three weeks since I have looked at it only as a thing that is to be,
and I almost feel as if it would be strange if it were otherwise. What
the effect of it may be on my character and fortunes I do not trouble
myself to prophesy. It will at least make me think many things easy
which seemed unapproachably difficult a month ago. It will teach me to
keep accounts. And it will give me some insight into the nature of a
state-conscience, a state-reason, a state-understanding, and a
state-character. Many things besides. It may very likely ruin my
reputation, but I am not sure that that would be an evil. I should be
much happier, I think, without any reputation, not to add that if it
were gone, I should be thrown upon my resources, which might after all
turn out to be a better thing. But let these things pass. One thing is
quite clear, that I could not spend the next six months in any way by
which I should gain so much either in knowledge or in power. My
immortal work must, of course, be suspended, but what is six months in
an immortality? By the way, touching my Falstaff Platonizing, I agree
with you, as reported by Merivale, that the insertion of such a joke
would be unbecoming in a Museum Academicum, the more's the pity, for
with the joke itself I was a good deal pleased. But then, on the other
hand, you will not let me prefix a serious introduction, explaining
the thing which it is meant to illustrate. I can only suggest that you
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