She came with us to the station and saw us to our places on the train.
The temperature had fallen slightly, and there was a cool breeze with
the hint of rain in it. Terry, before the train started, thanked her for
all the kindness she had shown him during those seven years, and said
that he hoped he would meet her again before long. And she answered, in
her coolest and most professional tones: "Oh, of course any time you are
in Vienna you must be sure to come and see me. I am so pleased you have
been satisfied here. Perhaps you will be good enough to recommend me to
your English friends." (And yet how well she knew he hadn't any!) She
was wonderful then, but the pose, because it was too perfect, gave
itself away. The thought came to me at that moment overpoweringly--how
extraordinary it was that Terry, with all his _penchant_ for
self-accusation, hadn't long ago accused himself of making her love him!
For she did love him, as much as any woman who ever lived, and the love
was like a fire in her eyes as the train began to move. She shook hands
with us and said, not "Good-bye," but "Wiedersehen." That, I think, was
just the pose, guarding her faithfully till we were gone. And what then?
There's no knowing, but I remember that when the train was almost out of
the station I looked out of the window and saw her still standing on the
platform where we had left her, and I think, though I can't be sure,
that she saw me and waved a last farewell.
It was I, perhaps, who was the more depressed during that slow, rumbling
night-journey towards the mountains. Terry had his alternate moods of
optimism and despondency, but I was uniformly oppressed with a sort of
_Wehmut_ or _Weltschmerz_ or whatever untranslatable thing the Germans
call it. The cold dawn came as we ran into Salzburg, and by noon the sun
was blazing on the red-roofed chalets above Innsbrück. All the time I
was thinking far more of the past than of the future; the parting with
Mizzi seemed to me far more pitiable than anything that had or could
have happened to Severn. I didn't talk to Terry about it, for he, who
never understood a woman at all, had certainly never understood Mizzi.
Only once, indeed, was she even mentioned, and that was when he said,
quite casually: "Odd, wasn't it, that Mizzi should ask me to recommend
her hotel? She might have known I should do, if ever I got the chance.
But I suppose the hotel's always in her mind--it seems to be what she
lives for, anyhow."
"Do you think so?"
"She told me so herself, only yesterday. She said she didn't care for
anything or anybody in the world except her hotel."
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