British -- Asia -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Soldiers -- Fiction
“What?” shouted the doctor. “Your fault that your brother was
murdered? Come, come, this is arrant nonsense. You don’t mean to say
that you are making Keeling miserable on account of this delusion?”
“No, it is worse with him.” She spoke very low. “I have never told
even Lady Haigh; but whenever I see Major Keeling, or even think of
him, Colin’s face seems to rise up before me--not dead, but as the
dervish described it, white and thin, and his hair white too. And I
can’t help feeling that it may be a--warning.”
“A fiddlestick! Oh, you Scotch people, with your portents and your
visions! A warning of what?”
“You don’t know--perhaps I ought not to tell you--but I am sure Colin
would have disapproved of my--caring for Major Keeling. And we were
twins, you know--what if he comes to show me that he disapproves of it
still?” She looked at him with wide eyes of terror.
“Then you don’t know that in talking to Lady Haigh he gave her to
understand that he had no objection to your marrying the Chief--excuse
me if I speak plainly--and even looked forward to it? She told me as
much when she was confiding to me her anxiety about you.”
“Colin said that to Elma, and she told you--and never told me!”
“Why, how could she? Of course she felt the time hadn’t come--that you
would think her brutal, or horrid, or whatever young ladies call it.
She mentioned it to me in confidence, and I had no business to repeat
it; but I’m the sort of person that rushes in where angels fear to
tread--am I not? Having once opened my attack, I couldn’t keep my
biggest gun idle, could I? What! you won’t condescend to answer me?”
“I am trying to understand,” she said in a low voice. “It ought to
make such a difference, and yet--there is Colin’s face.”
“My dear Miss Ross,” he spoke earnestly, as her eyes questioned his,
“this illusion of yours is purely physical. You have been brooding
over your brother’s fate for months, and living a most unhealthy
life--eating only enough to keep body and soul together, and refusing
to take exercise or accept any distraction. The wonder would have been
if you had not seen visions after it. Now that you know the truth
about your brother’s feelings, don’t you agree with me that nothing
would have grieved him more than to know you had made such a bugbear
of him? At any rate, let us put the illusion to the test. You must
have a thorough change--Lady Haigh and I will arrange it--and see
nothing for a time of any of the people here. You don’t mind the
Haighs, I suppose? Very well; then the illusion will disappear, if I
am right. If not, you must see Keeling once, and definitely bring
things to an end. He is not the man to break his heart for a woman who
hasn’t courage to accept him”--he saw that Penelope winced--“but it is
this undecided state of affairs that is the trouble. And if you have
any heart at all, you will let him know that it is not his fault, and
that you hope things will be different in future.”
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