British -- Asia -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Soldiers -- Fiction
For a moment she hesitated. Could she, did she dare, confess to him
the secret which she had only lately acknowledged even to
herself--that she had given her heart unasked to the keen-eyed swarthy
man who never talked to her of anything but war and work? To some men
it would have been possible to confide even this, but she felt,
rightly or wrongly, that with Ferrers it was not possible. She could
never feel sure that he would not in time to come fling her sorrowful
confession in her face, and use it to taunt her. She answered him with
desperate hopelessness, and, as she told herself, with perfect truth.
She had never had any thought of marrying Major Keeling. It would be
enough for her if their present friendship continued to the end of
their lives, or so she believed.
“There is no one,” she said. “Can’t you understand that--that----”
“That you don’t want to marry me?” cried Ferrers, laughing, his
good-humour quite restored. “No, Pen, I can’t. You’re feeling a little
sore now, because you think I’ve neglected you, but you shan’t
complain of that in future. I shall make furious love to you all this
week, and before I go back to that wretched hole we’ll announce the
engagement.”
He was so gay, so well satisfied with himself, so utterly incapable of
understanding what she felt, that Penelope’s heart sank. She made a
final effort. “Please listen to me,” she faltered. “I ask you
definitely to release me from my promise.”
“And I definitely refuse to do anything of the kind. There! is honour
satisfied now? You’ve made a brave fight--enough to please even Lady
Haigh, I should think--but it’s no good. The fortress has surrendered.
I’ll allow you the honours of war, but you mustn’t think you are going
to escape scot-free. Come!”
She allowed him passively to kiss her, and then sat down again at the
table, utterly exhausted. “Please go away now,” she said. “I will tell
Lady Haigh of--what you wish, and no doubt she will arrange for you to
come here when you like. I will try--to be a good wife to you.”
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