All these things, the memory of those days and hours which were so
inexpressibly dear to her, moved gently and evenly in Mrs. Home's mind,
even as the shadows drew steadily and slowly across the grass as she
walked up and down awaiting his arrival. And if sadness was there at
all, it was only the wonderful and beautiful sadness that pervaded the
evening hour itself, the hour when shadows lengthen, and the coolness of
the sunset tells us that the day, the serene and sunlit day, is drawing
to a close. That the day should end was inevitable; the preciousness of
sunlit hours was valued because night would follow them, for had they
been known to be everlasting, the joy of plucking their sweetness would
have vanished. And the same shadowed thought was present in Mrs. Home's
mind as she thought how the evening of her particular relationship to
Philip was come; all these memories, though dear they would always be,
gathered a greater fragrance because in the nature of things they must
be temporary and transitory, even as the memory of childish days is
dear simply because one is a child no longer. While childhood remained
they were uncoloured by romance, the romance the halo of them only
begins to glow when it is known that they are soon to be at an end.
Yet Mrs. Home would not have had anything different; that her relation
to Philip must fade as the day-star in the light of dawn, she had always
known. Even when the day-star was very bright and the dawn not yet
hinted in Eastern skies, she knew that, and now when the whole East was
suffused with the rosy glow, she would not have delayed the upleap of
the resplendent sun by an hour or a minute. For old-age unembittered was
her's, and in the completeness and fulness of Philip's manhood, not in
keeping him undeveloped and unstung by the sunlight, though through it
was flung bitter foam of the sea that breaks forever round this life of
man, she realised not herself only but him most fully and best. She
would not retain him, even if she could; he had got to live his life,
and make it as round and perfect as it could be made. It was her part
only to watch from the shore as he put out into the breakers, and wish
him God-speed. Yet now, as far as she could forecast, no breakers were
there, a calm sunny ocean awaited him; there was but the tide which
would bear him smoothly out. How far he would go, whether out of sight
of the land, where she strained dim eyes after him, or whether, so to
speak, he should anchor close to her, she did not know. He had now to
put out; once more they--he and she alone--would play together on the
sands, but each would know--he very much more than she, that they played
together for the last time. After this he must, as he ought, take
another for his playmate. And if at the thought her kind blue eyes were
a little dim, it was the flesh only that was weak. With all her soul she
bade him push out, and if to herself she said: "Oh, Philip! must you
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