Evelyn announced these discoveries with a perfectly serene and unclouded
air; perturbation that he was lacking in so large a piece of moral
equipment as a conscience would do no manner of good; nor, because his
wife missed it, would it help matters that he should mourn with her over
his deficiency. But the unshadowed brightness of his face, his frank
acceptance of this so genially and generously made, was something of a
reproach to her. All the sunshine of his beautiful nature was hers, all
the brilliance of his talent, his extraordinary personal charm, his
blithe acquiescence in all that happened was hers, and yet she was
discontent. And with a pang of self-reproach she contrasted all he gave
her with what she had herself thought good enough to give to Philip when
she promised to be his wife, affection, respect, esteem, just a platter
of frigid odds and ends, compared to this great feast and glorious
banquet of love.
But there was no doubt as to the accuracy of the diagnosis which Evelyn
had made as to what she missed in him. He had risen from the sofa, and
was standing in front of her, and at this she rose too, and laid her
hands on his shoulder.
"Ah, I'm an ungrateful little brute," she said; "but I believe that is a
woman's way. Whatever you give a woman, she always wants more, and
you--you, dear, whatever I give you, you always say you did not know so
much was possible. So I confess, and am sorry."
He looked at her still smiling, but without speaking, and the warmth of
her contrition cooled a little. He ought to have known, so she told
herself, that what she had said was not very easy to say; he ought to
have met the warmth of her _amende_ with welcome and acceptation, and
even acknowledgment of her generosity, for she had been generous.
"Well," she said at length, "have you nothing to say to that?"
He put his head a little on one side, as he did so often when he was
painting.
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