The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 12, No. 74, December, 1863: A Magazine of Literature, Art, and PoliticsVarious
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The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 12, No. 74, December, 1863: A Magazine of Literature, Art, and Politics
Various
American periodicals
Starke's affair was a godsend to the neighborhood, Dr. Bowdler saw.
Untrained people enjoy a sickness with more keenness and hearty
good-feeling than you do the opera. The Doctor had providently brought a
flask of brandy in his pocket. He went on tiptoe up the creaking stairs
and gave it to Jane. She was standing, holding the handle of the door,
not turning it.
"What is it, Jane?" cheerfully. "What do you tremble for, eh?"
"Nothin'",--chewing her lips and opening the door. "It's ten years
since,"--to herself, as she went in.
Not when she was a shy girl had he been to her what these ten years of
desertion had made him.
It was half an hour before the Doctor and Andy went up softly into the
upper room and sat quietly down out of sight in the corner. Jane was
sitting on the low cot-bed, holding Starke's head on her breast. They
could not see her face in the feeble light. She had some brandy and
water in a glass, and gave him a spoonful of it now and then; and when
she had done that, smoothed the yellow face incessantly with her hard
fingers. The Doctor fancied that such dumb pain and affection as there
was in even that little action ought to bring him to life, if he were
dead. There was some color on his cheeks, and occasionally he opened his
eyes and tried to speak, but closed them wearily. They watched by him
until midnight; his pulse grew stronger by that time, and he lay
wistfully looking at his wife like one who had wakened out of a long
death, and tried to collect his thought. She did not speak nor stir,
knowing on how slight a thread his sense hung.
"Jane!" he said, at last.
They bent forward eagerly.
"Jane, I wish thee'd take me home."'
"To be sure, Joseph," cheerfully. "In the morning. It is too chilly
to-night. Is thee comfortable?" drawing his head closer to her breast.
"O God! He'll live!" silently clutching at the bed-rail until her hand
ached. "Go to sleep, dear."
Whatever sobs or tears choked her voice just then, she forced them back:
they might disturb him. He closed his eyes a moment.
"I have something to say to thee, Jane."
"No. Thee must rest."
"I'd sleep better, if I tell thee first."
There was a moment's silence. The woman's face was pale, her eyes
burning, but she only smiled softly, holding him steadily.
"It has been so long!"--passing his hand over his forehead vaguely.
"Yes."
She could not command a smile now.
"It was all wasted. I've been worth nothing."
How close she held him then to her breast! How tender the touches grew
on his face!
"I was not strong enough to kill myself even, the other day, when I was
so tired. So cowardly! Not worth much, Jane!"
She bent forward over him, to keep the others from hearing this.
"Thee's tired too, Jane?" looking up dully.
"A little, Joseph."
Another silence.
"To-morrow, did thee say, we would go home?"
"Yes, to-morrow."
He shut his eyes to sleep.
"Kiss him," said the Doctor to her. "It will make him more certain."
Her face grew crimson.
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