The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 15, No. 87, January, 1865: A Magazine of Literature, Art, and PoliticsVarious
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The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 15, No. 87, January, 1865: A Magazine of Literature, Art, and Politics
Various
American periodicals
I am very sure that nothing was ever farther from my thoughts than the
writing of a book. The pages which follow were never intended for
publication, but were written as an amusement, sometimes in long winter
evenings, when it was pleasanter to be indoors, and sometimes in summer
days, when most of the circumstances mentioned in them occurred. I was a
long time in writing them, as they were done little by little. There was
a point in them at which I stopped entirely. Then I lent the manuscript
to several of my acquaintances to read. Some of these kept it only a few
days, and I feel quite sure soon tired of it, as it afterwards appeared
that they had read very little of it: they must have thought it
extremely dull. But these probably borrowed it only out of compliment,
and so I was neither surprised nor mortified. The only surprise was,
that now and then there was one who did have patience to go over it all,
as it was written in a common copy-book, not in a very nice hand, and
with a great many erasures and alterations. But when one has a favorite,
it is grateful to find even a single admirer for it. So it was with me.
I wrote from love of the subject; and when any one was kind enough to
give his approval, I felt exceedingly pleased, not because I had a high
opinion of the matter myself, but only because I had written it. Then it
must be acknowledged that my small circle of acquaintances comprised
more workers than readers. Those who had a taste for reading found their
time so occupied by the labor necessary to their support that but little
was left to them for indulging in books; and the few who had leisure
were probably such indifferent readers as to make the task of going over
a blotted manuscript too great for their patience, unless it were more
interesting than mine.
At last, after a very long time, and a great many strange experiences,
the manuscript fell into the hands of one who was an entire stranger to
me, but who has since proved himself the dearest friend I ever had. He
read it, and said it must be published. But the thought of publication
so frightened me that it almost deprived me of sleep. Still, after very
long persuasion, I consented, and the whole was written over again, with
a great many things added. When it was all ready, he told me I must
write a preface. So I was persuaded even to this, though that was a new
alarm, and I had scarcely recovered from the first. I have always been
retiring,--indeed, quite out of sight; and nothing has reconciled me to
this publicity but the knowledge that no one will be able to discover
me, unless it be the very few who had patience to read my manuscript.
Even they will find it so altered and enlarged as scarcely to remember
it.
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