The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 16, No. 95, September 1865: A Magazine of Literature, Art, and PoliticsVarious
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The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 16, No. 95, September 1865: A Magazine of Literature, Art, and Politics
Various
American periodicals
But when I returned to the West, after thirty years' absence, this last
spring, one of my chief aims was to find some traces of them. I took
passage for W----, therefore, the largest town in their old county,
finding that a railroad had invaded that region,--passing, by the way,
through the very spot where we opened the mound. Business detained me in
W---- for several days, and at the close of the week, one close, sultry
evening, I was strolling about the dingy streets with the lonesome
feeling which always besets one in a strange place, when I came to a
little foot-bridge over the creek, from which opened a view of the river
below, and the foundries glaring red on either side. It was a lonely
place, though in the midst of a busy town. I stopped, leaning over the
little hand-rail, looking down into the muddy water, and at the silent,
melancholy lights burning dully in its depths and in the air above.
There was a solitary figure on the bridge, which strangely entered into
the quiet and dreariness of the scene, depressing it, giving to its
dingy and unclean shadows a human significance of loss and discomfort.
It was an old man, in a filthy suit of black, who stood smoking a coarse
cigar and looking vacantly down into the creek. His head was bald, a
fringe of uncombed red hair straggling about the pinched and pimpled
face; it shook weakly when he tried to look at me; the light eyes
blinked blindly in the dim light. A weak, tipsy bit of old human flesh,
which once might have made a man; yet you fancied he had become a
drunkard as a cowardly escape from pain,--that he had been disappointed
before he had begun life. Nearly an hour I stood quietly watching
him,--then, having known him for some time, I touched his arm.
"Abel," I said,--"Abel Steadman?"
He started, reddened in his old womanish fashion, and, when he
recognized me at last, stood cringing, holding his frowzy hat in both
hands with a subservient humility pitiful to see. His manhood had
slipped from him so utterly, that his harmless vanity had left but the
dregs of self-disgust.
"Come, man," I said, "be cheery at seeing an old friend. Give an account
of yourself."
I forced him with me to the hotel, and ordered wine, seeing that he
needed a stimulant. He had come unwillingly, almost angrily, and now sat
on the edge of a chair, his hat held in both hands between his knees.
"That's no good,"--pushing the wine feebly away. "I only take it when I
cannot breathe without."
After a long time, however, the poor creature seemed to waken into a
faint likeness of his old self, and told me his story in a forlorn,
disjointed way. After I heard it, I thought, cruelly enough, that he had
had sufficient of his poor portion of life, and all that remained for
him was to die as weakly as he had lived. I tried to rouse him by asking
for his poems and essays.
"No good came of any of them yet. When I get my rights, I'll publish. It
won't be long to wait now."
"You mean"----
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