The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 18, No. 105, July 1866: A Magazine of Literature, Science, Art, and PoliticsVarious
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The Atlantic Monthly, Volume 18, No. 105, July 1866: A Magazine of Literature, Science, Art, and Politics
Various
American periodicals
Those were the days of the _Morus multicaulis_ mania, and I embarked
with spirit in the silk-worm business. The original capital upon which I
erected the enterprise was furnished from the surplus of Aunt Judy's
wages. It was in the first silk dress that should come of all those
moths and eggs and wriggling spinners and cocoons that she invested with
such sanguine cheerfulness; and although she never got her money back in
that form,--owing to the unfortunate exhaustion of my mulberry-leaves
and the refusal of my worms to spin silk from tea, which, they being of
pure Chinese stock, I thought very unreasonable,--she conceived that she
reaped abundant returns in her share of my happy enthusiasm, while it
lasted; and when I wept over the famine-stricken forms of my operatives,
she said, "Never mind, honey; dey was an awful litter anyhow, and I
spec' dey was only de or'nary caterpillar poor trash, after all, else
dey 'd a-kep' goin' on dat tea; fur 't was de rale high-price Chany
kind, sure 's ye 'r born."
It was a striking oddness in the dear old soul, that, whilst in her
hours of familiar ease she indulged in the homely lingo of her tribe, in
her "company talk" she displayed a graver propriety of language, and in
her prayers was always fluent, forcible, and correct.
The watchful tenderness with which I loved my gentle, childlike father
was the most interesting of the many secrets that my heart shared only
with Aunt Judy's. When I was twelve years old, he fell into a touching
despondency, caused by certain reverses in his business and the
unremitting anxieties consequent upon them. So intense and sensitive was
my magnetic sympathy with him, that I contracted the same sadness, in a
form so aggravated and morbid that the despondency, in me, became
despair, and the anxiety horror. The cruel fancy took possession of my
mind, installed there by my treacherously imaginative temperament, that
some awful calamity was about to befall my dear father; that he,
patient, submissive Christian that he was, even meditated suicide; and
that shape of fear so shook my soul with terror in the daytime, so
filled my dreams with horror in the night, that, as if it were not
myself, I turn back to pity the poor child now, and wonder that he did
not go mad.
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