Anne had been gone for four or five months. He often estimated the time,
surprised to find it so short. Then he began to indulge in
retrospection. Little by little he regained his former influence over
Marie Louise and Philippe, for whom he invented new games and stories.
The little ones, fascinated by this art of ornamenting life, neglected
their mother, who was miserable about it in secret, but when does one
cease to learn to love unselfishly? However, even if this childish joy
did refresh him, he was too loyal and far-sighted to hide from himself
any longer the fact, that it was Elizabeth who attracted him to
Saint-Martin d'Uriage. He gained an understanding of her from Marie
Louise's remarks, Philippe's questions, and her own words. The young
woman's reserve gave way in their interviews. She showed more freely,
but without display, her intelligence, circumspect, though clear and
just. As he got to know her better, he manifested more eagerness to
reconquer her. She neither repulsed nor encouraged him, flattered by
that strange homage, which he paid her with all the resources of his
mind, and proud too, of showing him what she had become, which he had
not divined. In her turn, she held herself aloof, and was happy in
expectation, and he was sometimes irritated by this unexpected
indifference, and again promised himself to conquer her and to lay down
the law.
With the exception of Philippe Lagier, who was often away, he saw no one
but Elizabeth. In this charm of intimacy which so few men can resist, he
confided to her his entire projects, the plans of his work. One day he
brought along the manuscript of a "Popular Life of Pasteur" which he was
finishing for his collection of biographies. He read it aloud, and when
he had finished, humbly seeking praise, she gave him the highest: that
of a deep emotion, which she felt, even to the degree of silence in
listening to the story of the scientific career, so honorable and so
full of enthusiasm. Another time, he did not conceal his bad humor
because all the Verniers in the world were already there for the day
when he arrived at Saint Martin. Blanche's husband, in his vanity at
being in close touch with a great man, took possession of him, and
Albert, in spite of his desire to be pleasant to his wife's friends, was
wearied by this attitude.
"What is the matter with you to-day?" Elizabeth asked him as he was
going away.
"You are never alone."
The reproach was so droll that she burst out laughing. But he did not
share her gayety. And that evening she watched him for a long time,
until she could no longer see him. He did not turn around, for he gave
himself up passionately to recollections of Anne, and promised himself
to give up all this new life.
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