And yet his absence for the next few days would be a relief to her. She could think the whole thing out, she said to herself. She had not been well enough to think clearly since Lloyd had gone. To adjust her mind to the bitter finality meant swift oscillations of hate and the habit of affection--the spirit warring with the flesh. She would never see him again;--she would send for him! she despised him;--what should she do without him? Yet she never wavered about David. She had made her choice. William King's visit had not shaken her decision for an instant; it had only frightened her horribly. How should she defend herself? She meant to think it all out, undisturbed by the sweet interruptions of David's presence. And yet she knew she should miss him every minute of his absence. Miss him? If Dr. King had known what even three days without David would mean to her, he would not have wasted his breath in suggesting that she should give him up! Yet the possibility of such a thing had the allurement of terror; she played with the thought, as a child, wincing, presses a thorn into its flesh to see how long it can bear the smart. Suppose, instead of this three days' trip with Dr. Lavendar, David was going away to stay? The mere question made her catch him in her arms as if to assure herself he was hers. The day before he started, Helena was full of maternal preoccupations. The travelling-bag that she had begun to pack for herself--for so different a journey!--had to be emptied of its feminine possessions, and David's little belongings stowed in their place. David himself had views about this packing; he kept bringing one thing or another--his rubber boots, a cocoon, a large lump of slag honeycombed with air-holes; would she please put them into the bag? "Why, but darling, you will be back again on Saturday," she consoled him, as each treasure was rejected.--("Suppose he was _not_ coming back! How should I feel?") He was to spend the night before the journey at the Rectory, and after supper Helena went down the hill with him. "I wish I hadn't consented to it," she said to herself; "do you like to go and leave me, David?" she pleaded. And David jumping along at her side, said joyously, "Yes, ma'am." At the Rectory he pushed the door open and bounded in ahead of her, "I'm here!" Dr. Lavendar put down his _Spirit of Missions_, and looked over his spectacles. "You don't say so! And you're here, too, Mrs. Richie? Come in!" Helena, hesitating in the hall, said she had only come to leave David. But Dr. Lavendar would not listen to that. "Sit down! Sit down!" he commanded genially. David, entirely at home, squatted at once upon the rug beside Danny. "Dr. Lavendar," she said, "you'll bring him back to me on Saturday?" "Unless I steal him for myself," said Dr. Lavendar, twinkling at David, who twinkled back, cozily understanding.