Bildungsromans; Domestic fiction; England -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction; Young women -- Fiction
“Why that compared with her I’m a poor creeping thing. I mean”--she
hastened to forestall any protest of mere decency that would spoil her
idea--“that of course I ache in every limb with the certainty of my
dreadful difference. It isn’t as if I DIDN’T know it, don’t you see?
There it is as a matter of course: I’ve helplessly but finally and
completely accepted it. Won’t THAT help you?” she so ingeniously
pleaded. “It isn’t as if I tormented you with any recall of her
whatever. I can quite see how awful it would be for you if, with the
effect I produce on you, I did have her lovely eyes or her distinguished
nose or the shape of her forehead or the colour of her hair. Strange as
it is in a daughter I’m disconnected altogether, and don’t you think
I MAY be a little saved for you by becoming thus simply out of
the question? Of course,” she continued, “your real trial is poor
Nanda--she’s likewise so fearfully out of it and yet she’s so fearfully
in it. And she,” said Mrs. Brook for a climax--“SHE doesn’t know!”
A strange faint flush, while she talked, had come into Mr. Longdon’s
face, and, whatever effect, as she put it, she produced on him, it was
clearly not that of causing his attention to wander. She held him at
least for weal or woe; his bright eyes grew brighter and opened into a
stare that finally seemed to offer him as submerged in mere wonder. At
last, however, he rose to the surface, and he appeared to have lighted
at the bottom of the sea on the pearl of the particular wisdom
he needed. “I dare say there may be something in what you so
extraordinarily suggest.”
She jumped at it as if in pleasant pain. “In just letting me go--?”
But at this he dropped. “I shall never let you go.”
It renewed her fear. “Not just for what I AM?”
He rose from his place beside her, but looking away from her and with
his colour marked. “I shall never let you go,” he repeated.
“Oh you angel!” She sprang up more quickly and the others were by this
time on their feet. “I’ve done it, I’ve done it!” she joyously cried to
Vanderbank; “he likes me, or at least he can bear me--I’ve found him the
way; and now I don’t care even if he SAYS I haven’t.” Then she turned
again to her old friend. “We can manage about Nanda--you needn’t ever
see her. She’s ‘down’ now, but she can go up again. We can arrange it at
any rate--c’est la moindre des choses.”
“Upon my honour I protest,” Mr. Cashmore exclaimed, “against anything
of the sort! I defy you to ‘arrange’ that young lady in any such manner
without also arranging ME. I’m one of her greatest admirers,” he gaily
announced to Mr. Longdon.
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